Just a quick thank you to Trevrizent for the quote, it was most useful. I have definitely been feeling more fearless since that moment.
I am no where near this point yet, but the part about giving in to tiredness really struck a cord.....it has been my escape for years. :/
It showed up more around my depression (brain chemical imbalance) but even since a teenager I could/would sleep half the day away at weekends. I still will given the chance. To see the above has come as a shock, as I never realised I use it as an escape.......I always thought that I was just too tired (then more so body chemical imbalance etc). Maybe my bodies imbalance has become partly my method of escape/avoidance of the emotional parts to my problems in life....much to think about.
One thing I've been trying to do since reading this is to 'do' even though I may be tired/exhausted, and not use it as an excuse not to 'do'.
"This is the time when a man has no more fears, no more impatient clarity of mind - a time when all his power is in check, but also the time when he has an unyielding desire to rest. If he gives in totally to his desire to lie down and forget, if he soothes himself in tiredness, he will have lost his last round, and his enemy will cut him down into a feeble old creature. His desire to retreat will overrule all his clarity, his power, and his knowledge.
"But if the man sloughs off his tiredness, and lives his fate through, he can then be called a man of knowledge, if only for the brief moment when he succeeds in fighting off his last, invincible enemy. That moment of clarity, power, and knowledge is enough."
I am no where near this point yet, but the part about giving in to tiredness really struck a cord.....it has been my escape for years. :/
It showed up more around my depression (brain chemical imbalance) but even since a teenager I could/would sleep half the day away at weekends. I still will given the chance. To see the above has come as a shock, as I never realised I use it as an escape.......I always thought that I was just too tired (then more so body chemical imbalance etc). Maybe my bodies imbalance has become partly my method of escape/avoidance of the emotional parts to my problems in life....much to think about.
One thing I've been trying to do since reading this is to 'do' even though I may be tired/exhausted, and not use it as an excuse not to 'do'.