Mrs.Tigersoap said:I noticed that while I have no trouble breathing in through the nose, out through the mouth during the whole EE, when the meditation begins, I feel I struggle to do so because I naturally want to breathe in and out through the nose. So I generally 'fight' this and stay concentrated on my breathing, which is nice in itself, but I feel like I'm not 'entering' into meditation mode, so busy I am with this struggle. Now, when I choose not to 'fight' anymore and breathe out through the nose instead of the mouth, almost immediately, I zone out or I am in a special state I cannot describe (perhaps a meditative state? I'm not sure.
So, what do you think I should do: fight this 'urge' or give in to it?
You could try what I do which is to have my mouth open slightly, breath in and when you breath out press your tongue against the roof of your mouth. This way its not so forced/is more relaxed.
Having said that, perhaps start this way then go with whatever is most comfortable. When I catch myself zoning out my breathing has sometimes changed to in and out through my nose.
Mrs.Tigersoap said:I also noticed that when I zone out, it's different now: I used to have no recollection of what was going on, a bit as if I had slept but did not remember my dream. Now, I sort of zone out, but I remember some my thoughts or visions, at least in the first few minutes. Nothing fancy, but it's like I zone out and I have at the same time the recollection of what I thinking about while I'm zoning out. Does that make sense to anyone?
Yup! Several people (myself included) posted about this a few pages back. I'm like you in that I only remember a little and its more half remembered impressions/understandings....where as others have said they are having quite detailed visions they can recall. Most interesting indeed.
My sense of time during these states is also rather interesting....I just remembered being aware of my sense of time changing as I zoned out. I can't really say how, but time seems different somehow.....like my frame of reference changes.
I'm sure it'll get clearer as I go along.