truth seeker said:
Endymion said:
I wanted to give an update on my EE practice.
A couple of days ago, in my morning POTS session, I heard a very distinct voice in my left ear saying: 'I'll kill you'. This was said with anger in the voice. It was somewhat disturbing, but I noted it and carried on with my breathing. It did not return. I don't know exactly what it was, but I suspect it was an internal program of mine, or even the predator's mind, threatening me. I wondered if it actually came from somewhere outside me, but this I cannot confirm or deny. My left ear hears less well than my right ear.
Yes, I've experienced this as well and think your response was correct.
I agree with Truth Seeker on this. fwiw following discussions earlier in the thread it seems that this program can act as a way of getting rid of spirit attachments (among other things)....so its equally possible that this is what was happening.
DanielS said:
Immediately after I started to hear voices of a lot of people screaming and crying. They were all suffering. Like maybe in a fire, but I can't be sure. But it wasn't part of the dream. It was completely separate to what was happening in the dream but sounded so vivid and real! It shook me to my core, and a huge wave of energy moved up my body so fast that before I knew it, it was at my neck. I immediately pushed it back down and wanted to get the hell out of there.
I remember a few years back (possibly around the time I found the c's?) that I was in an odd dream state after waking up and falling back to sleep one morning. In it everything was black, except for a few people who appeared as if drawn by using lines to define only there features (outline, nose, eyes etc)...each person had a different colour.
One of them approached me and asked me something....I said I couldn't hear him (as happened a lot in these sort of dreams)...he put his hand on the top of my head, and repeated what he said....I heard him this time and it was 'Do you want to see?'
I said yes (not quite knowing what 'see' meant).....and felt a rush of energy around my third eye followed a feeling of wind rushing past me....followed by exactly the same thing you describe...a rush of energy up the body and sense of panic about it....and it got lodged in my throat as I panicked. I felt like I was waking up in a dream...and the panic was that I would (having been reading about UFO's) wake up to find myself face to face with a grey alien or something....I still don't know what that was (other than intense and frightening)....
I think it may be worth dropping the Ba Ha portion of the program if you are doing it. I think whatever it was (in your case) is part of the clearing process, and just doing the POTS every night will help it clear more slowly.
Its possible the old guy is your predators mind, or perhaps an attachment...or neither. But the 'drink' element is interesting (as in drowning out reality).
Helle said:
When I first started out with the EE program, I did the whole program every day. Very quickly, within the first week even, I started to feel depressed. Further along I had a total breakdown, and I cut out the baha portion, and only did the rest on Mondays/Thursdays. - But it was like an avalanche, I couldn't stop all these emotions. I got a little scared (or very), so I completely stopped the EE program, I didn't even do the POTS for several months.
Recently I feel strong enough again, to start out, but I have to admit, that I'm scared the same will happen again.That it will overwhelm me. I'm doing the POTS now again, and I'm doing some pipebreath everyday, but I feel a little reluctant in starting the whole program again..
The pots, it has totally changed the way I view the universe. I'm grateful in almost everything I experience in everyday life, like when I take a shower, I'm grateful that I'm even able to have hot running water, and everytime I eat, I'm grateful that I even have food. I'm grateful that I have a roof over my head etc. I'm in a constant state of humbleness (if that's a word) and gratitude.
Sooo, I'm back in business, a little reluctant, and a little afraid, but very grateful, that such a powerful program even exists.
I've been through something quite similar Helle, only over a longer period of time.....for me it seems that along with depression my health problems seemed to come to the fore front. That's not to say it exaggerated them...I think it just made me more aware of them.
Its only recently that my health seems to be coming back together and I've only just started doing the full program again too. I've been doing the POTS and pipe breathing for over a year though 5 nights out of 7.
So I understand your apprehension.....but I think that if you have been doing the POTS and working on yourself, and as long as you go easy and pay attention you will do ok.
I did the full program twice last week, but did not do it this Monday due to my programs raging away (I'd had a breakthrough on my understanding of self...osit earlier that day)..and staying up late wasting my time on a new computer game....
It is a constant battle....and it seems that I need to remember that every time I take a step forward I need to brace myself for the 'push backwards' that always comes.