The Consortium, the Quorum, the alien interface, depicted in 'romantic' fiction - what the heck?!

iamthatis

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In the Regency thread, it was suggested that a key element of the Work being done in the project was healing past-life trauma. This is done through consciously identifying with the characters, plus activation of the emotional centre, which is linked directly to the sexual centre, which is linked directly to the 7th density feminine aspect. As the characters go through it all, so do we - whether we learn to see ourselves in the protagonist lovers, and/or the antagonist tyrants. We suffer, we learn, our DNA does a little dance.

So the regency novels are set in the past - our consciousness registers this temporal setting, and in a way primes us for (1) past-life Work, and (2) our own recent past, in this life.

These Consortium books are set in the present, but gesture to a time-setting and a hyperdimensional reality that projects into the Earth's near future, and as such that registers in our consciousness, too. Given the hyperdimensional aspect in these tales, this also opens up possibilities of healing in a non-linear timeframe - not just past lives, but a clearer understanding of 'ourselves in the future', too. Again, as the characters go through it all, so do we - whether we learn to see ourselves in the protagonist lovers, and/or the antagonist tyrants.

What I'm pondering is this - in this Consortium series, if we limit our identification solely to the human protagonists who are forced to deal with psychopaths, demons, and monsters, could we be missing an opportunity to understand our own essence more fully?

For context, I watched Joker the other day. I was quite shaken. In part because of the bleak depiction of meaninglessness, manipulation, abandonment and violence. Mostly, though, I was shaken because Joker was so familiar. I got the sense that I was somebody like that in a past life - a brutalized, twisted person, driven to murder and psychosis.

Extrapolating out from there, I recalled Chapter 2 of The Wave. I could quote the whole dang mind-blowing chapter, but suffice to say, we are not who we think we are. It may be useful to re-read it while looking at these Consortium books:

Q: (L) Now, I would like to know the name of the beings Ruth described as something like ants, flies or Praying Mantises in her hypnosis session?

A: Her essence.

Q: (L) Well, you said that the Praying Mantis beings that V encountered were called Minturians. Are these the same?

A: No.

Q: (L) Is there a difference between essence beings and incarnate beings?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) And what were those snaky, slug-like beings that she saw?

A: Same.

Q: (L) Are you saying that all of this stuff is who she is? All of these creatures and these…

A: In some of the alternate realities.

Q: (L) Do all humans have creatures like that that are their essence?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) My essence is something that horrible and dark and icky?

A: Subjective.

Q: (L) Well, weren’t those horrible icky beings eating little children? Weren’t those real human children?

A: Yes. How do you think you are viewed by deer, for example?

Q: (L) Well, I can immediately see that. I saw that already. I mean that cows and chickens would have to view us that way. I mean, it’s pretty gross.

A: Roaches, too.

Q: (L) Is that why the night before Ruth’s session, I dreamed of ants that I could have stepped on and smashed, and for some reason I decided I did not want to take the life of even a single ant?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Was that dream preparing me for what I was going to experience in that session?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Well, what do we do about these essence parts of ourselves? I mean, I don’t like it that there may be something of the predator in me. I would like to not have it, or get rid or it, or transform it, or whatever.

A: Wait and see.

Q: (L) Well, am I going to have to remember myself doing things like that in order to come to terms with it?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Is that going to happen to me, that I am going to have memories like that surfacing?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Well, I am having a hard time coping with it in someone else, how am I going to deal with it in myself?

A: You will.

Q: (L) Is this something we are all going to have to do?

A: All eligible fourth density candidates.

So in light of the information in this chapter, it looks like these stories are giving us an opportunity to come face-to-face not with 'external threats', but with the true nature of our own multidimensional Soul essence. That includes 4D STS, with their varied attempts to turn us into them in the future. The 'external threats' designation of the antagonists in the books is, at best, only a partial truth. And with The Wave coming, I think it makes sense to take every opportunity we can get to "come to terms" with our selves, and reduce externalizations, pretensions, and projections as much as we are able.

All of this may be why people are feeling what they're feeling. The deep, embodied reaction to these Consortium tales could be the result of a fuller recognition of the darkness in our essence. We can choose to read these antagonists as ourselves in the future. As necessary for a 4D candidate with the approach of the Wave, according to the C's.

On a final note, I see a lot of people being squeamish about the sex scenes, and skimming or skipping them. I wonder if these are conscious decisions, taking into account (1) the beneficial relationship between suffering and DNA, (2) the mechanics of stimulating the sexual centre to awaken the emotional centre and therefore 'embody' the Knowledge, and (3) the opportunity presented to self-observe in a distraught state, and reflect on sexual programming.

Whatever happened to 'there are no shortcuts in the Work'?
 

gdpetti

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Ok, decided to read these to see what the noise was about... did this years ago with Harry Potter... about to start the third book... the writing is rather minimal... like most Hallmark movies.. very formulaic, generic, full of the stock characters and tropes... but I can see what L mentioned about the background data/knowledge of these STS types sprinkled through the series.. very limited, but as the C's said, you have to learn step by step... especially for readers of her series without any esoteric background.

The sex scenes seem very limited IMO, same with her writing in general, she is really just cranking this stuff out like any other tv, radio show or magazine... as if she is on a schedule to complete one chapter, book a month or whatever. I keep checking the page count... not a good sign, sort of like being on a date and you keep checking your watch. The sex scenes are rather generic as well, the titillation factor is rather low, minimal if you are observing your reaction while reading, but with some story progression, it does allow one to feel the usual sexual response that STS types focus on...the high degree of limitation and laser focus... that black hole effect... thus the control issue of how to create this chaos and control it.. same thing they are attempting with their entire Great Reset program today. Basic predator/prey relationships etc. You can get a very small taste of that mindset/energy focus on those centers. Reminds me of L's other book on the psycho that kept a journal.. later killed his girlfriend and left her in pieces in a suitcase in the closet, remember that one?

It's all rather limited from the writing to the sex, but how else to get a glimpse of focused STS mindset? The C's recommended that Wolfen book as an example of the tribal, pack-like mindset, but that book was rather limited in scope as well. Others have said these books get better or deeper...hopefully that is true. As usual, the more you bring to the table of understanding oneself and others, the more you can extract from this limited book series. The sex scenes seem to be key IMO... not much there, same with the rest of her writing, so little characterization, the usual 'do-something-stupid' to setup the next scene etc.... but those sex scenes seem the best at getting a glimpse into their focused, laser like mindset... that black hole effect the C's mentioned. Those sex scenes are as pale as the rest of her writing, hopefully, she's gotten better by the end. I would suggest not skipping those sex scenes, as they are so little... the books themselves are so 'little'... I would suggest focusing on them instead... IF you want to understand your 'enemy' that is... otherwise, it's all rather trite, isn't it? So very predictable, cliched etc... thrown together to crank out books for sale.... the sex is pretty much the same stuff everywhere... but isn't that the point? Does the author really know what she is doing? How many 'artists' do? They know what they want to express, but do they understand the depth potential? JKRowling didn't with Harry Potter, the idea 'came to her' on that train when it got stuck or delayed and she didn't have anything to write down the thoughts that started rolling into her mind.

The sex scenes are like porn... the same over and over... only the faces change, but not the expressions, movements etc...but you get a feel for the mindset, the energy lock... the need to control, dominate etc... the is rather lightweight so far, which I doubt will change, but for the esoteric student, you can use it as a vehicle to gain knowledge... to know thyself, which is really all there is, right? If are all just fractals of the One seeking to know Itself, then it's a question of our interactions with each other... some collide, some barely graze another... depending upon their trajectory in any incarnation, their blueprint etc. From everyone's description so far, this series seems like most of the other small stepping stones on the journey... there aren't many very useful the further you climb, so you have to make the most of the few that you encounter along the way.

I do hope her writing gets better, story development is weak, as are most aspects of her writing... she really is cranking this out to a schedule it seems... so many pages a day or whatever. Some of the setups are so predictable you just have to shake you head at times... Oh well... for the student, it's up to us to squeeze as much juice as we can from this carrot, no? I think the sex scenes stick out as much as they do because there really isn't much in terms of story or character development... very simplistic writing... fill in the blanks kind.. with that background slowly exposing this STS mindset.. that black hole.... no wonder there are so few of them, same with any specialty.... the higher you go, the ranks thin to the point of near total exclusivity.... until black hole.

So far, I'm having trouble 'liking' or groving or 'feeling' any of the characters, none seem very real or fleshed out... yet... hopefully that changes soon.... more sex, more character, more of anything... it's so very 'thin'... is my impression so far, definitely written to sell more to those that get attached easily... So far, Veronica's mother is the only interesting character IMO.
 
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jess

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I have finished the first book "Owned", I found it very interesting, especially because even though it is very clear how it refers to the most powerful classes of society, how Lana and Blake connected from the soul, independently of the sexual side or class differences, it reminded me a lot of how in the other thread: "Romance Novels" how the main characters long to be inside each other in the literal, I wonder if it is a natural primal part in the human being, that goes beyond our current understanding of it.

It made me think a lot about the current complexity in which we live, and a little bit made me understand how we coexist with light and darkness both external and internal, both in others and in ourselves in the nature of the world in which we live. That is to say, I was very struck by how Lana awakened through the sexual in the first instance, but beyond the sexual when Blake was in contact with her, he rediscovered his human side, little by little the emotions between them were running high in different ways, making them awaken a noble part of their being, even to say that they could feel love in spite of the circumstances. And Lana who also felt the sexual attraction, the opportunity to learn about the upper echelons of power and wealth, it is clear that Lana consciously agreed to know the dark side by getting involved with Blake even though she lied to herself a little by trying to convince herself that she was doing it because of her mother's illness. She fell into the curiosity to learn more than she knew in her environment, and accepted with a certain kind of strange courage to go into it. In other words, neither of them could have that opportunity to learn if it were not for being together, connected first physically and then emotionally.

On the other hand it made me think a lot about how the global power classes work in the dark and do it very well, it made me think then how difficult is the environment in which we live, there is a lot of ignorance in many ways, and at the same time acceptance and somehow how in most of the population contribute to that darkness exists, I say this because throughout the novel, the acceptance of "money" as something wonderful and dazzling, throughout the novel and outside the "fiction" of the story. Money is an engine that strongly moves people, the masses.
I was also reminded of a very interesting article by Sott: Why Do Some People Support Tyranny While Others Defy It?

Also, in spite of this "need for monetary resources", I believe that some people with a potential soul or with a soul, has a longing in his heart that goes beyond the materialistic world, like Lana wanting to help her mother's illness.
In general it made me think a lot that there is a part that is connected to the spiritual learning inside of us that is in constant struggle between choosing that which makes us grow and learn even though sometimes it seems dirty and/or painful, and that which makes us close our heart and deny the reality or the truth of the nature in which we live.
 

Laura

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I want to mention another apparent effect of reading this series and similar: one very quickly gets "done" with 3 D existence. I found myself feeling quite depressed contemplating it all and had to do a few neuro sessions to regroup - plus, read a bit of Balogh.
 

Andrian

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I want to mention another apparent effect of reading this series and similar: one very quickly gets "done" with 3 D existence. I found myself feeling quite depressed contemplating it all and had to do a few neuro sessions to regroup - plus, read a bit of Balogh.
It's funny because i've had a similar experience lately, I've started experiencing recently a sort of inner peace and peace of mind towards the draconian totalitarian regime that is being implemented worldwide and the lack of concern or almost the total indifference from the part of the people around me. If let's say, 8-9 months ago I was feeling more anxious and emotionally and psychologically more under pressure to the point that a couple of times some utensils at my place broke up, now after having read a good number of romance novels and all the dark novels suggested by you Laura I'm feeling more calm, I'm able to keep my wits together more easily than before.

But I've noticed also recently that I few times I thought what if I won't make it to the final act of the show, while pondering I've realized that I won't mind to check out sooner (it will be a relief at this point), to be honest it has been a long, tough and tedious journey thus far, but it will be a pity to do so beforehand, thus not being able to attend the final act of the show.

Therfore I've decided to do my best by being true to my true nature and fearing nothing while following my path and when the time will come to check out one way or another from this reality, i will be ready.

In the end I feel that I didn't reincarnate at this point in time only for myself, that is for the sake of learning my life lessons, I feel that I'm part of this global drama and that it is important to be calm and patient while the PTB are pushing the enslavement agenda worldwide because the rest of the sleeping humanity, those that have access to their higher centers, must see the true nature of their leaders thus seeing the real depth of the evil and entropy that is being spread by the PTB, thus choosing eventually which way they wanna go, upward or downward.

In moments like these I keep remembering what the C's were telling us through Laura all these years, that is, that the dystopic reality will be unfolded right in front of our eyes, that sooner than later the pressure will reach a critical point when different events will start developing at a much faster pace (makes me think of the earth changes, cosmic phenomenon, the Wave), that the PTB will push too hard and all will come crashing down and that eventually all will turn well, all we have to do is to be calm and patient, to have faith and love. And you know what, me thinks that all we have been blessed with the current drama that is being played out worldwide because all we have the opportunity to learn a hell lot of lessons that we won't have been able to learn in different circumstances. So yeah, we just have to keep going forward, to stick together because for me personally all you have become my real brothers and sisters, my spiritual family, my community, my tribe, my refuge that helps me to keep my wits together.

Now I'm reading the Survivor's Club series and I'm feeling calm and grateful to Laura and all who have been participating in the romance novels thread because this project is a refuge, a quiet spot where one learns to be true to his own nature and fear nothing literally while the chaos is spreading worldwide.

Sorry for the long post.
 

sid

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I have read all of the dark novels and these have proved quite helpful in understanding the STS control in greater detail but more specifically, how the battles between STS and STO might be getting fought in 3D. In specific I refer to the revelations and overall outcome in the "..Midnight" novel.

These novels portray the 4D STS mind quite well when you put all the underlying messages together. Its an all-consuming void which must continuously consume light in ever greater quantities to survive and thrive. It is hyper-anxious and scared of losing its food source and for that it must engage with others (against its own nature to be left alone) and build complex web of worlds and systems to transact with 4D/3D/2D lifeforms and consume their consciousness in a way which minimises free-will infringement. In a moment of clarity, you begin to realise the pointlessness of 3D existence in STS worlds i.e Earth - such is the effect of staring into the VOID deep enough that it stares back at you. I wonder if this is similar to 4D STS vs STO battles and 4D STO entities needing to re-group and build back their lost polarity.

Perhaps, being able to stare deep into the void and still hold on to our FRV is a key lesson before one considers themselves a 4D STO candidate.

My wife and I did get the feeling of being done with 3D as I remarked only a few days ago that who would want to come back and incarnate in this place. And I said that seeing how much totalitarianism has seeped in. Here in Australia, we feel like like living in "the parallel" with movement limited to 5KM only. Some people I have observed are actually asking more of the same.

They say in these novels that the free-will cannot be abridged but I am not quite seeing it play out that way for everyone involved. True that a lot of peeps have no realisation of free-will and have willingly succumbed. The system is hell-bent of vaccinating everyone at least in this part of the world even if that destroys all lively-hoods from lockdowns. This is forcing a lot of people to succumb just to survive which is a clear infringement of free-will and I ache to see how the nature reacts (if it ever does because people won't). So, I see the desperation of the STS, can feel it in the air and from the deterioration of the language being employed in the news. Seemingly they are frightfully scared of losing control due to some near-future natural event(s).

Meanwhile, we are doing what we can to keep calm and see out the show till the end. Not that anxious or worried but a little depressed, yes. The reading helps and we have already resumed the regency romance novels to continue the learning. As the C's said recently that we have some time still to sort our emotional centers before the real damage beings to manifest so best to make the most of it.
 

987baz

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Honestly, I have had the opposite reaction, I am angry, today especially, I am failing to see the point in the "every day grind". I am so sick of the stupidity and constant barrage of the sheepl. I though it was because of my recent breakup too, and maybe it is partly due to that, but I definitely think that the dark romance novels have had an effect. (and the regency ones).

Being here in Australia seeing this frenzied push for total vax control and the peeps salivating at the thought, with barely any push back is pretty disheartening, but that said there is some push back and there are some awake people doing their best to stop it.

After reading Laura's post earlier, and now both Andrian's and Sid's, I feel calmer and realise that, of course you are right, time to calmly let go :)

Maybe if everyone could see what we are seeing they wouldn't be so afraid of what's happening.

I don't think it's fear on my part, just an overwhelming frustration, but again I realise that it is because I want to control things and not be inundated with stupidity all day long, both of which I need to let go of.

The thought of catching up with you all on Sunday morning definitely makes me feel grateful and calmer for sure! So, as others have said, THANK YOU to Laura and all the tribe, you keep me sane, I really can't imagine what I would be doing if I hadn't found this forum, what a true blessing you all are :hug2:

 

JeanneT

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It's funny because i've had a similar experience lately, I've started experiencing recently a sort of inner peace and peace of mind towards the draconian totalitarian regime that is being implemented worldwide and the lack of concern or almost the total indifference from the part of the people around me. If let's say, 8-9 months ago I was feeling more anxious and emotionally and psychologically more under pressure to the point that a couple of times some utensils at my place broke up, now after having read a good number of romance novels and all the dark novels suggested by you Laura I'm feeling more calm, I'm able to keep my wits together more easily than before.

But I've noticed also recently that I few times I thought what if I won't make it to the final act of the show, while pondering I've realized that I won't mind to check out sooner (it will be a relief at this point), to be honest it has been a long, tough and tedious journey thus far, but it will be a pity to do so beforehand, thus not being able to attend the final act of the show.

Therfore I've decided to do my best by being true to my true nature and fearing nothing while following my path and when the time will come to check out one way or another from this reality, i will be ready.

In the end I feel that I didn't reincarnate at this point in time only for myself, that is for the sake of learning my life lessons, I feel that I'm part of this global drama and that it is important to be calm and patient while the PTB are pushing the enslavement agenda worldwide because the rest of the sleeping humanity, those that have access to their higher centers, must see the true nature of their leaders thus seeing the real depth of the evil and entropy that is being spread by the PTB, thus choosing eventually which way they wanna go, upward or downward.

In moments like these I keep remembering what the C's were telling us through Laura all these years, that is, that the dystopic reality will be unfolded right in front of our eyes, that sooner than later the pressure will reach a critical point when different events will start developing at a much faster pace (makes me think of the earth changes, cosmic phenomenon, the Wave), that the PTB will push too hard and all will come crashing down and that eventually all will turn well, all we have to do is to be calm and patient, to have faith and love. And you know what, me thinks that all we have been blessed with the current drama that is being played out worldwide because all we have the opportunity to learn a hell lot of lessons that we won't have been able to learn in different circumstances. So yeah, we just have to keep going forward, to stick together because for me personally all you have become my real brothers and sisters, my spiritual family, my community, my tribe, my refuge that helps me to keep my wits together.

Now I'm reading the Survivor's Club series and I'm feeling calm and grateful to Laura and all who have been participating in the romance novels thread because this project is a refuge, a quiet spot where one learns to be true to his own nature and fear nothing literally while the chaos is spreading worldwide.

Sorry for the long post.
Very well said, Andrian. You have described what I have been going through lately, as well. It has felt like there is a big energetic squeeze going on and I, for the first time in my life, have had the thoughts that it will be a relief to exit if it so happened. And then, something inside always rises and says there is more to witness and a soul agreement to carry this through. I want to be strong enough to do that but lately, my emotional body seems to be vulnerable to fear as events unfold and we seem to really be entering the reality of what has been predicted. I do think the darker novels have helped to ground me into facing and understanding our 3D existence in areas that have been off my radar because I have not lived it first hand.


In between reading the Romance novels, I picked up "Bringers of the Dawn" again just to change flavors a bit and see what is there for balancing out the other books. Although I appreciated that book in the past, I found that now after gaining more knowledge and perspective through watching current events unfold and living more history, it shook me up quite a bit. I actually had an emotional meltdown when reading page 18. " Emotions are a source of food. There are those whose food source is love, and the Original Planners intend to alter the frequency of Earth to that of love. The current owners' food source of fear, anxiety, chaos, hunger, and despodency must be removed." Guess who is removing the food source? You are! .....You are systems busters, here to conquer your own fears and to show the rest of the planet that there is no reason to fear anything. ....You are famous for going into systems of reality and altering the frequency, thus bringing information. It is not your task as members of the family of light to proselytize. You simply go into systems and act as receptacles; you receive the creative cosmic rays into your bodies, the bodies you occupy as humans. ...you allow a process to take place." "You are coded, and as your memory begins to rise, you will respond to the plan with which you came here to participate to alter the frequencies."

Well, this particular part can be viewed as a bit new age like and a even a trap for the ego in some ways. However, I had a visceral reaction that was intense. I tried to examine what has been going on with me that stimulated a response and also what was I feeling. I was feeling relief! I was feeling free of the responsibility to save the planet from terrible events, to warn, to teach, to change anything with my knowledge and fear of what is to come and to witness suffering. If my main role is to get my own self into balance to receive light and frequencies to land, then I can do that. Even though I had an understanding of this concept before from the C's it was the visceral event that opened something more for me. I am not totally there yet...I still feel the fear and doubt but I work on that with understanding.

I am seeing more now how the blending of the suggested Romance books along with the material so generously given by our friends in 6D may be the ticket to unblocking the programming and allowing more of who we are to emerge.
 

Brandon

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Being here in Australia seeing this frenzied push for total vax control and the peeps salivating at the thought, with barely any push back is pretty disheartening, but that said there is some push back and there are some awake people doing their best to stop it.

After reading Laura's post earlier, and now both Andrian's and Sid's, I feel calmer and realise that, of course you are right, time to calmly let go :)

I know what you mean.. I was re-reading some Carlos Castaneda the other day as I'd not read any in years, and found this bit from The Second Ring of Power, about what don Juan meant by "impeccability":
I narrated to her the way don Juan made me understand what was meant by impeccability. He and I were hiking one day through a very steep ravine when a huge boulder got loose from its matrix on the rock wall and came down with a formidable force and landed on the floor of the canyon, twenty or thirty yards from where we were standing. The size of the boulder made its fall a very impressive event. Don Juan seized the opportunity to create a dramatic lesson. He said that the force that rules our destinies is outside of ourselves and has nothing to do with our acts or volition. Sometimes that force would make us stop walking on our way and bend over to tie our shoelaces, as I had just done. And by making us stop, that force makes us gain a precious moment. If we had kept on walking, that enormous boulder would have most certainly crushed us to death. Some other day, however, in another ravine the same outside deciding force would make us stop again to bend over and tie our shoelaces while another boulder would get loose precisely above where we are standing. By making us stop, that force would have made us lose a precious moment. That time if we had kept on walking, we would have saved ourselves. Don Juan said that in view of my total lack of control over the forces which decide my destiny, my only possible freedom in that ravine consisted in my tying my shoelaces impeccably.

I could never exactly grasp "impeccability" when I used to read those books. Or how don Juan had said something like: a good petty tyrant is something to be treasured, and that the time of the conquistadors had been unparallelled in this respect. I used to sort of understand these things theoretically, but this time it made perfect sense, in these days where just going grocery shopping feels like an exercise in constant awareness and cultivating a sort of warrior mood of control/abandon. Like, I'm not responsible for anything anyone else does, I'm responsible for what I do.

A couple more Castaneda quotes found by searching for "abandon":
You are here, with me, because you want to be here. You should have assumed full responsibility by now, so the idea that you are at the mercy of the wind would be inadmissible.
Self-pity doesn't jibe with power. The mood of a warrior calls for control over himself and at the same time it calls for abandoning himself.
Last night when the lion let out a scream, you moved very well. Everything you did then was done within a proper mood. You were controlled and at the same time abandoned. You were not paralyzed with fear. To climb that bluff as you did, in darkness, required that you hold on to yourself and let go of yourself at the same time, that's what I call the mood of a warrior.
I wanted to show you that you can spur yourself beyond your limits if you are in the proper mood. A warrior makes his own mood. You didn't know that. Fear got you into the mood of a warrior, but now that you know about it, anything can serve to get you into it.
It's convenient to always act in such a mood, it cuts through the crap and leaves one purified. One needs the mood of a warrior for every single act, otherwise one becomes distorted and ugly. There is no power in a life that lacks this mood.

Sorry for being sort of off-topic, just what these posts got me thinking about. I haven't read any of these books yet, though I started my first romantic fiction today, Mary Balogh's Someone to Love. Started with her because I really liked her on the SOTT MindMatters podcast. It's really lovely so far! (The way Anna Snow acts right at the start when she's taken to London and first meets the Westcotts also reminded me of don Juan impeccability quotes)
 

987baz

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Don Juan said that in view of my total lack of control over the forces which decide my destiny, my only possible freedom in that ravine consisted in my tying my shoelaces impeccably.
I recently finished reading (listening to) the Fire From Within, and I get where you're coming from, thanks for the reminder!

Glad you're on board the romance novel train, the regency stuff is definitely a good way to positively disassociate IMO! Not to mention the happy endings and positive relationship role models. The dark romance is, for me at least, a quicker read and has different lessons in it, disturbing, but gives you an insight into the PTB and how they view us. I get a similar feeling from them as when we read all the Samenow and psychopathology books FWIW.
 

Mari

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It's funny because i've had a similar experience lately, I've started experiencing recently a sort of inner peace and peace of mind towards the draconian totalitarian regime that is being implemented worldwide and the lack of concern or almost the total indifference from the part of the people around me. If let's say, 8-9 months ago I was feeling more anxious and emotionally and psychologically more under pressure to the point that a couple of times some utensils at my place broke up, now after having read a good number of romance novels and all the dark novels suggested by you Laura I'm feeling more calm, I'm able to keep my wits together more easily than before.
Thank you for your post Andrian!

Huh, I don’t know… After reading these books, I have the same urge as I have when something horrible happens in my life- I just want to roll down and sleep. Sleep for thousand years.
All of this I knew before trough the Cs, but having this horrible agenda wrapped up in this form, it left me emotionally exhausted, sad and empty.
Maybe again I‘m going trough phases of grief, IDK, but I feel some deep deep sadness and sorrow.
I have Gracie‘s „The Perfekt Rake“ already bought for a week now, but I somehow had to finish this to move on. Maybe I have an overload and mixed up emotions.
I started also with this „Surviving Death“ series, I don’t know why, I haven’t watched anything in half a year, and yesterday as I watched the series, I felt even more sad watching this poor people searching mediums and some meaning of death of their loved ones.
Anyway, I „knew“ there is a reason for me to „save“ Merridew series for later - I will start with it today. Gracie, so far, always made me happy/better.
 
As soon as I finished the 5th book in the Banker series I felt a stretching within my being to make room for this information to settle in. Then I fell physically ill which led to depression which led to many things in my life going side-ways. But I actually think this is good because it feels as if things were shaken up a bit and then reorganized in a deeper and more balanced way as strange as that sounds. This new knowledge is not pretty but it is part of our reality. I'm finding myself way to curious about Blake's mother for some reason. She seemed to have knowledge of both the light and dark sides and was in a position to be a balancer of forces. It seems strange to have a system like this but I'm sure there are many more things about this yet to be discovered. And I have no doubt that Laura will discover those things if it is meant to be. Stay tuned. :-)
 

Voyageur

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I am seeing more now how the blending of the suggested Romance books along with the material so generously given by our friends in 6D may be the ticket to unblocking the programming and allowing more of who we are to emerge.
Well said, JeanneT, and for your quote from BD - and some aspects are not dissimilar to how John Trudell often framed things in what he discussed as a mining operation of the human spirt. And that has been happening, is happening, which speaks to having awareness of it and limiting where their shovel can impact ones mind and soul.
 

nicklebleu

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I am currently reading the second book of “You Don’t Own Me” series, so getting towards the end of this author’s work.

They are really interesting in a very morbid way. I always had some knowledge about the life of the super-rich, having crossed paths in the past with some of them, but the extent of their sickness, cynicism and depravity is something else. Why would you even want to live such a life? Sure, I wouldn’t mind being financially totally independent, but that seems to me almost impossible - meaning there is no independence: The higher up the food chain you go, the tighter the rules or ‘codes’ by which you have to live by. Yes, you can fly around the world in your own jet, but even though Blake wanted to get out, there really was not way out. Once in, that’s it!

So I find these books not as satisfying as the Regency novels. Interesting yes, informative, sometimes stunning in their disclosures, but disturbing. And while there is always kind of a happy ending, it’s only ‘kind of’ … there is always a ‘but’, a fly in the ointment. I guess this is more aligned to real life as the Regency novels are, where at the end, there is eternal love and bliss between the protagonists, and they ride out into the sunset. But at the moment, I need kind of a bit of the illusion, that there will be a happy ending. Well, I know there will be, but more in the dark humorous Cassiopean sense that in the Regency novel sense.

But one thing that these dark romance novels have brought to me is a renewed sense of appreciation and gratefulness for what I actually have - compared to say Blake with all his money and power - that is the possibility to be able to make my own decisions, even if some of them are hard and I have to do them with only partial understanding of all the ramifications.
 
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