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the all-encompassing egg
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I just got up from a nap and I had another dream. Whoa. This one was really strange and I want to write it down before I forget a lot of the little details.
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First, I'll provide some background so you can interpret it better. I work at a small foods shop. When I was hired I loved it, my manager really believed in me and my coworkers seemed really fun and interesting. Then the old manager left- almost a year ago- and with her departure most of the cool staff members have left as well. The person who got the job was younger and inexperienced and the store began to 'deteriorate'- now people aren't as efficient, the manager has obvious favorites, people goof off and there is a lack of respect there. Oh, and she's hired a lot of her friends as well- *cough. I'm one of the assistant managers there. In the past, I've called out the various problems in the store (both personal and professional) and because of that my manager doesn't like me very much. Her 'favorites' aren't very nice to me either- it's all rub-off. Part of me just doesn't care, but another part is happiest when people are kind to each other and get along- so it can be stressful although I try to keep it all in perspective. People are constantly testing me and I've had to become a firmer person because of it, I'm really learning how to stand up for myself. Of course, the 'testing' doesn't make work very fun and today was one of those days. (Yes, sometimes I think to myself "why don't you just leave?" but what has kept me there so far is that it pays alright and I have health care and pretty good hours. I'm getting to the point though...)
About the same time that the management changed was when I really started to devote myself to studying alternative theories about life and history and religion and all that goes along. I had very little knowledge up until that point, but I had lots of curiosity and determination. I know I have changed because of that: material things don't motivate me anymore, I make small talk less, I don't like to watch TV or movies, I eat better, social activities like going out to bars and getting drunk just don't appeal to me at all, etc. etc. Also, the majority of 'real world' social interactions have revealed themselves to be very 'fake'- which can be very frustrating- does anyone else feel this? I'm 22, which I'm sure will bring more perspective to everyone, so it'll be noted. I'm very green still, I know. I'm learning to keep a balance and constantly have to remind myself to keep it in perspective! I'll admit that. I'm still figuring it all out. What fuels me is not where I'm going- because honestly, I don't have much of an idea yet- it's the hope and the feeling that I am getting/going somewhere, and that by discovering new knowledge I can figure out who 'I' am and explore the higher levels of being. I know all of these details are important, so thank you for reading. :D
All the stuff about the goofing off is pretty much literal (I think) but I've provided everything I can remember so as to have coherency. (The end part of my dream gets really strange!)
I have a few comments below in blue, so it's easier to read. Thanks!
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I'm pretty sure my dream 'tapered' into this, but this is the first part I can remember...
I was at work and it was a normal, busy day. 3 people were working out on the 'floor.' They were goofing off and weren't being very respectful to me. There were a lot of customers around and I was a bit stressed that people weren't working or helping the customers enough.
I go in the back to retrieve 2 of the other staff members and find one (another manager) on the desktop computer surfing Ebay and Craig's List for stuff to buy and the other was pretending to work on shipping mail orders (doing stuff online on a laptop) but was really checking her email. I think the other manager was on lunch because I wasn't mad at him, but I started to tell the girl that I saw her goofing off and that we needed her on the floor working. The other manager was sort of arguing with me about her needing to be on the floor. I don't believe he would do this in 'reality.' And she got mad at me and was being disrespectful (rolling her eyes and being sarcastic) but finally got up. Once she was on the floor, it's like I felt/heard her talking badly about me because she was angry. This girl I've clashed with in the past and so none of this surprised me at all, it just made me really mad.
Suddenly it seemed then that time had passed. We were having a special event in the backroom, people were casually walking back there and I felt like it was messy (because it's always messy) and we were unprepared for it. There were tubs of precut feta sitting on one of the office supply shelves by where the employees were using the computers. There were large and small tubs as there always is. I heard this loud crying and knew it was from inside one of the tubs.
One of the employees told me that we "really needed to do something about it" because it was loud and distracting. I didn't want to, but I picked up the tub and opened it. Somehow I knew that the feta (most of the time) contained a baby, that it was preferable to some people. They liked to eat them as a delicacy. Usually the babies don't cry because they are a bit younger, but this one was 'mature' and so it was just screaming. The smell of feta was warm, milky and a bit sour and it made me a little nauseous. The baby was embedded in the feta with only the crown of it's head at the surface and so I had to carefully break up the feta with my fingers to get the baby out. I picked it up by it's head (it was quite small, palm size or smaller). It grossed me out. I didn't understand how anyone would ever find one appetizing, blech. Still holding it's head by my thumb and index, I took it over to the sink and rinsed it off and then put it on a towel on the floor. It laid there crying and I looked at it's body. It looked like it could be human, but wasn't. Something was off. It's eyes were larger and glossier and dark. It's legs were extremely bowed inward and the feet curled in- it had lots of little toes that were squirming. It's torso was really long and not shaped as a regular baby's would be, a wide chest with a tiny tiny waist that went 'straight down' (in width) to the legs where it tapered off at the feet. It's head was also very large, it's arms shorter and very skinny. It's ribs were sticking out and at first I thought that it was starved but somehow knew that they were supposed to do that. It disgusted and scared me but I still felt really bad for it and didn't think it was right for anyone to eat it.
Then it started to move really strange, it's body looked like it was attempting to get up. In a snap second, it's body sort of morphed or grew into another shape. The weird part was that the 'snap second' was almost slow-mo in my 'dream time', but quickly returned to 'regular' speed again. The 'baby' got up and it's body had changed completely. It was still the same size but it had four 'legs'- though I'm pretty sure that the two front legs had characteristics of arms as well- a bit of a 'palmed' foot and knees that sort of looked like elbows. It was hunched over like an animal. It's head had legs/arms coming out of it, the way they were shaped reminded me of the feather's on a birds' head. Like a cockatoo almost. The head-legs moved and they had little toes that were squirming. The baby had teeth and I knew that that was why I held it as I had before, why I didn't hold it like I would a regular baby, I thought it would bite me. It walked around slowly for a few seconds as though it was learning to use it's legs and then it took off! It moved almost like one of those scary jumping spiders, it's legs very quick and the joints bendable- it moved at incredible speed. It took off into another room and an employee was running around trying to catch it.
I think I was starting to wake up at that point because I'm not sure what happened next.
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I thought it was strange that the baby moved like one of those jumping spiders, because I also had a dream a few months ago where David Icke was a very large jumping spider. I also remember a dream I had when I was very young where (either 8 or 11 of) the same spiders were in my bowl of chicken noodle soup! Maybe I just dream about those kind of spiders a lot because they are the creepiest IMO.
David Icke Dream: http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=1111 (if you're curious)
I take all the work details pretty literal unless someone can see any symbolism in it...don't think so though.
Everything about the baby is still real vivid in my mind.
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First, I'll provide some background so you can interpret it better. I work at a small foods shop. When I was hired I loved it, my manager really believed in me and my coworkers seemed really fun and interesting. Then the old manager left- almost a year ago- and with her departure most of the cool staff members have left as well. The person who got the job was younger and inexperienced and the store began to 'deteriorate'- now people aren't as efficient, the manager has obvious favorites, people goof off and there is a lack of respect there. Oh, and she's hired a lot of her friends as well- *cough. I'm one of the assistant managers there. In the past, I've called out the various problems in the store (both personal and professional) and because of that my manager doesn't like me very much. Her 'favorites' aren't very nice to me either- it's all rub-off. Part of me just doesn't care, but another part is happiest when people are kind to each other and get along- so it can be stressful although I try to keep it all in perspective. People are constantly testing me and I've had to become a firmer person because of it, I'm really learning how to stand up for myself. Of course, the 'testing' doesn't make work very fun and today was one of those days. (Yes, sometimes I think to myself "why don't you just leave?" but what has kept me there so far is that it pays alright and I have health care and pretty good hours. I'm getting to the point though...)
About the same time that the management changed was when I really started to devote myself to studying alternative theories about life and history and religion and all that goes along. I had very little knowledge up until that point, but I had lots of curiosity and determination. I know I have changed because of that: material things don't motivate me anymore, I make small talk less, I don't like to watch TV or movies, I eat better, social activities like going out to bars and getting drunk just don't appeal to me at all, etc. etc. Also, the majority of 'real world' social interactions have revealed themselves to be very 'fake'- which can be very frustrating- does anyone else feel this? I'm 22, which I'm sure will bring more perspective to everyone, so it'll be noted. I'm very green still, I know. I'm learning to keep a balance and constantly have to remind myself to keep it in perspective! I'll admit that. I'm still figuring it all out. What fuels me is not where I'm going- because honestly, I don't have much of an idea yet- it's the hope and the feeling that I am getting/going somewhere, and that by discovering new knowledge I can figure out who 'I' am and explore the higher levels of being. I know all of these details are important, so thank you for reading. :D
All the stuff about the goofing off is pretty much literal (I think) but I've provided everything I can remember so as to have coherency. (The end part of my dream gets really strange!)
I have a few comments below in blue, so it's easier to read. Thanks!
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I'm pretty sure my dream 'tapered' into this, but this is the first part I can remember...
I was at work and it was a normal, busy day. 3 people were working out on the 'floor.' They were goofing off and weren't being very respectful to me. There were a lot of customers around and I was a bit stressed that people weren't working or helping the customers enough.
I go in the back to retrieve 2 of the other staff members and find one (another manager) on the desktop computer surfing Ebay and Craig's List for stuff to buy and the other was pretending to work on shipping mail orders (doing stuff online on a laptop) but was really checking her email. I think the other manager was on lunch because I wasn't mad at him, but I started to tell the girl that I saw her goofing off and that we needed her on the floor working. The other manager was sort of arguing with me about her needing to be on the floor. I don't believe he would do this in 'reality.' And she got mad at me and was being disrespectful (rolling her eyes and being sarcastic) but finally got up. Once she was on the floor, it's like I felt/heard her talking badly about me because she was angry. This girl I've clashed with in the past and so none of this surprised me at all, it just made me really mad.
Suddenly it seemed then that time had passed. We were having a special event in the backroom, people were casually walking back there and I felt like it was messy (because it's always messy) and we were unprepared for it. There were tubs of precut feta sitting on one of the office supply shelves by where the employees were using the computers. There were large and small tubs as there always is. I heard this loud crying and knew it was from inside one of the tubs.
One of the employees told me that we "really needed to do something about it" because it was loud and distracting. I didn't want to, but I picked up the tub and opened it. Somehow I knew that the feta (most of the time) contained a baby, that it was preferable to some people. They liked to eat them as a delicacy. Usually the babies don't cry because they are a bit younger, but this one was 'mature' and so it was just screaming. The smell of feta was warm, milky and a bit sour and it made me a little nauseous. The baby was embedded in the feta with only the crown of it's head at the surface and so I had to carefully break up the feta with my fingers to get the baby out. I picked it up by it's head (it was quite small, palm size or smaller). It grossed me out. I didn't understand how anyone would ever find one appetizing, blech. Still holding it's head by my thumb and index, I took it over to the sink and rinsed it off and then put it on a towel on the floor. It laid there crying and I looked at it's body. It looked like it could be human, but wasn't. Something was off. It's eyes were larger and glossier and dark. It's legs were extremely bowed inward and the feet curled in- it had lots of little toes that were squirming. It's torso was really long and not shaped as a regular baby's would be, a wide chest with a tiny tiny waist that went 'straight down' (in width) to the legs where it tapered off at the feet. It's head was also very large, it's arms shorter and very skinny. It's ribs were sticking out and at first I thought that it was starved but somehow knew that they were supposed to do that. It disgusted and scared me but I still felt really bad for it and didn't think it was right for anyone to eat it.
Then it started to move really strange, it's body looked like it was attempting to get up. In a snap second, it's body sort of morphed or grew into another shape. The weird part was that the 'snap second' was almost slow-mo in my 'dream time', but quickly returned to 'regular' speed again. The 'baby' got up and it's body had changed completely. It was still the same size but it had four 'legs'- though I'm pretty sure that the two front legs had characteristics of arms as well- a bit of a 'palmed' foot and knees that sort of looked like elbows. It was hunched over like an animal. It's head had legs/arms coming out of it, the way they were shaped reminded me of the feather's on a birds' head. Like a cockatoo almost. The head-legs moved and they had little toes that were squirming. The baby had teeth and I knew that that was why I held it as I had before, why I didn't hold it like I would a regular baby, I thought it would bite me. It walked around slowly for a few seconds as though it was learning to use it's legs and then it took off! It moved almost like one of those scary jumping spiders, it's legs very quick and the joints bendable- it moved at incredible speed. It took off into another room and an employee was running around trying to catch it.
I think I was starting to wake up at that point because I'm not sure what happened next.
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I thought it was strange that the baby moved like one of those jumping spiders, because I also had a dream a few months ago where David Icke was a very large jumping spider. I also remember a dream I had when I was very young where (either 8 or 11 of) the same spiders were in my bowl of chicken noodle soup! Maybe I just dream about those kind of spiders a lot because they are the creepiest IMO.
David Icke Dream: http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=1111 (if you're curious)
I take all the work details pretty literal unless someone can see any symbolism in it...don't think so though.
Everything about the baby is still real vivid in my mind.