cubbex said:
I know this dream is just fiction. But today I feel like 3 times when I was dreaming a big energy from my back that tries to I don't know, suck me up. it was powerfull I couldn't even move my body It needed a lot of will to move my body, but In the dream someone was talking with me, and that person I think knew what was happening.
But I needed to get myself awake, if not, what energy was taking me, like transporting me, or something I knew that if a let myself be kinda absorbed or embraced by this energy... I don't know, I was so scared, because I couldn't sleep because of this, I get kinda sleep and this thing overflows from my back with a big sound like waves, fast waves while this energy was becoming stronger and while I feeled my being falling from something.
Could you give me a comment? I did the pray before sleep, you know, for protection, so what was this?
Quite a few years ago I read the Casteneda series, long story short, I began experimenting with Dreaming. (Lucid Dreaming)
I have had this experience quite often over the years involuntarily, but in the beginning I cultivated the technique of bringing on the Lucid state.
I won't go into details of the Lucid dream itself in this post but just relate my experiences entering the Lucid state for a voluntary and involuntary start.
Voluntary state:-
I had practiced breathing exercises, relaxation techniques and keeping the brain very busy for a time then silencing my thoughts, which after many false starts one night did bring results.
The first sensation was a sort of electrostatic feeling as if I was, or my body was charging electrostatically and I felt a sort of expanding wooly sort of feeling, very hard to explain.
Sleep paralysis starts to kick in, yet full a fully awakened mental state is kept. The sleep paralysis may have been the result of what happens next. What happens is that one gets a noise in the ears,
and for me the first time, the noise got louder and louder (many false starts was a result of me pulling back at this stage and the sleep paralysis kicking is, as it can be pretty scary sensation)
until it was literaly deafening. There was around the time the paralysis, the noise kicks in that one gets a falling sensation.
It took me many attempts to stick with it and let myself go at that point, but I was realy desperate to move forwrd in my life at that time and I give myself up to fate literaly. (was my state of mind at that time, again a long story, but anyhow).
One feels like one is falling into an infinitely deep hole, one feels like one is expanding and contracting at the same time, it's a very curious and frightening experience, or was for me during my early
attempts.
Then wallop you are in a dream state fully awake still, and its 3D and all senses are with you. I even felt cold and touch, again would need to put that into its context but some other time maybe.
Involuntary state:-
Now there can occur when one is waking from an unconscious state (regular dream) or one is trying to pull onself from a Lucid state out of fear or panic (which has happened to me also), that it is realy hard to break the sleep paralysis. Its like being in a complete head to toe striaght jacket, one tries to literaly shout in order to break free its so powerfull a feeling. Because at that stage one is panicked. and who would not be when waking to paralysis? one feels dread, and because of that dread and the lingering Lucid state, we can conjure all sorts of imagery.
One can also come to a conscious state just after falling asleep or drifting off whilst in the beginning stages of paralysis at the beginning, which again is pretty scary.
I have not tried thid voluntarily for quite a number of years now, but still wake as I start sliding into Lucidity from time to time. I generally just shrug it off now and wake enough to go have a drink of water then return to bed, where normal sleep occurs.
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I will relate one experience briefly I had once during an involuntary Lucid Dream.
I bacame Lucid abd recognised the state. It was again some years back during my 20's. I was full of anxiety and dealing with quite a few issues back then.
Anyhow I was in like an underground railway station with several parallell tracks and platforms. Each platform was split down the middle lengthwise by a concrete divider not unlike the old Berlin wall.
Now I was on this platform and on the other side of this wall on the same platform I heard a very scary pig like grunting and squealing, as if some monsterous Boar was searching for me to devour me.
I was mentaly wide awake with all my senses intact and ran down the length of the platform. The Boar was parallelling me on the other side of thatw all still out for my blood.
I could not awake from the dream and was in so much fear I just continued to run and my fear built and built. Talk about worse nightmare. Anyhow I notice a gap in the wall coming up.
I knew the beast would be upon me at that point. I just came over all calm (well calmer than completely terrified) and thought well if this is how it ends so be it, I stepped into the gap ready to face whatever fate was in store and saw facing me, a copy of myself.
That other self was very calm indeed, and seemed far wiser and confident than my then self, very self assured.
My other said to me that I had done well. I had faced my fears, and now there was nothing I could not face.
Thanks to that lucid state, ie being completely aware in that dream state I had faced my fears as represented by that unknown Boar like creature that was after teraing me apart.
So for me even though my earlier Lucid states were pretty scary (there were others), they helped me to move forward on my path. Not reccomended for everyone but they were experiences that I will never forget, mainly for their intensity.
Hope I have not scared you with my tale as for me anyway the tale ended well.
This experience obviously has no context to put the tale into its correct perspective from my personal point of view for the reader, that would take pages, but I hope just gives an example of how the lucid state or its sensations can be a very scary experience.
Leon
