Nell-Li
The Force is Strong With This One
Lets just get to it. Before reading from the Cass website and esoteric issues, at the end of each day laying in my bed, I reasoned to myself that our existence was only worth it if we could reason in our own minds that we exist(ed) (linear time issues) after "DYING". Now after acquiring more "information" ( I would like to say "knowledge", but I never feel that all I have read sinks in to actuate in my life) in the dead of night, I reason that there may be more to concious thought than what we could reason ourselves into thinking "how things are" as oppose to what reality is. I guess the latter thought replace the former thought, for my existensial dilemma or my reasoning of the fear of death, "dark side of infinity", (not quoted out of context I hope).
I guess what I am trying to say is, my lack of understanding or belief or faith in my own existence( selfish huh?) after this life scared me to look for answers. Does anyone else feel that "Wall" (called life by so many) that veil from us that which we cannot see past through? Does that say anything about my essence? Maybe a symtom of having no soul potential?!( though I m trying to live my life now, with the possiblity that could be true)
I know to most the above may seem like jibberish, that was all my mind could pull together when I have random questions like, but I do not like to post unless it is a issue that taxes me to no end. My hope is that someone could relate, or have insight or suggested reading that would shed some light. oh last thought, this feeling of the "wall" thing also equates to the "void" feeling, if that helps.
Thanks for reading this, hopefully we/I could make some progress from this.
(apologies if some of this has already been dicussed, but thats what I like about the "What's on your mind" fourm. :) )
I guess what I am trying to say is, my lack of understanding or belief or faith in my own existence( selfish huh?) after this life scared me to look for answers. Does anyone else feel that "Wall" (called life by so many) that veil from us that which we cannot see past through? Does that say anything about my essence? Maybe a symtom of having no soul potential?!( though I m trying to live my life now, with the possiblity that could be true)
I know to most the above may seem like jibberish, that was all my mind could pull together when I have random questions like, but I do not like to post unless it is a issue that taxes me to no end. My hope is that someone could relate, or have insight or suggested reading that would shed some light. oh last thought, this feeling of the "wall" thing also equates to the "void" feeling, if that helps.
Thanks for reading this, hopefully we/I could make some progress from this.
(apologies if some of this has already been dicussed, but thats what I like about the "What's on your mind" fourm. :) )