luke wilson
The Living Force
I read on the wave that no one is supposedly un-important. That STS forces have no problem in giving anyone there un-restricted attention and such. The only reason why I find this hard to believe is because of the whole self-importance issue. I am yet to learn how to deal with self-importance so I generally dont like things that make me feel important or special. This is an area that requires work.
Anyways, this has recently led me to think about 2 particular events in my life that I had brushed underneath the rag.
The story goes like this, once when I was young, I think I might have been about 9 or something like that. Cant remember the exact age but around that number. I went on a swimming trip with my class. Now, as I couldnt swim, I and the rest like me were only allowed to stay on the shallow end of the pool. However, at one point, I moved all the way to the edge of the shallow and deep end and accidently went over to the other side. This was quite a horrific thing, I tried to get back but I couldnt, I tried flapping my hand to get attention but no one was seeing me. The only way I could get air, was whenever I sank I leaped up again to get some air before I sank again and I just did this repeatedly. I was desperately hoping that someone would help me, would notice that I was stranded and drowning. . Infact I was even baffled at how everyone else including the lifeguard was going on about there business, people playing in the water around me without having the faintest idea that somebody was drowning right near them.
Anyways, as I kept leaping up and down, my legs progressively got tired and every progressive jump wasnt as high as the previous and I was barely making it out the water to get air. At this point I was certain I was going to die. Water was getting into my lungs, I was losing strength and I was sure this was it. I actually remember thinking that this will make the papers. 'Primary School Child dies on swimming trip.' However, just as I was bracing myself for the rather bitter wet end of my rather young life, somebody swooped in from behind me and lifted me up and took me to the railing by the side of the pool and spoke into my ears that I should stay there and then he went. I looked behind me trying to catch a glimpse of this person but he wasnt there anymore. All I could see was my other classmates and the lifeguard still yapping away at some people on the other opposite side of the pool. Nobody even realised that I was so close to drowning and everything just went on as normal. I had to get out and nurse myself after having swallowed water and shaking like a leaf because of horror, you'd think if it was a lifeguard he would atleast stick around to make sure I was ok. I knew it was an adult who got me, despite me not having seen him because his arm was big, he just lifted me up with one hand and got me to the rails. So this cancelled out my classmates and left the only adult in the vicinity who was the life guard who was on the other side not paying any attention to anyone and generally not doing his job! Anyways, since then, I have never entered into a swimming pool.
Anyways, the point of me writing and sharing this is, is it possible that the person who saved me was like a 4th density person? I have recently thought about this and I find the question entering my mind is why would that happen? I mean people drown everyday!! I also read somewhere that, higher density STO forces dont intervene as it is a violation of free will but I am now left confused. Is there anything more I can do to try and understand this event or should I just stick it back underneath the rag?
I would like to say this is the only time, I have needed an intervention inorder to save my life but it isnt. Again, this happened about the same age, at the same school. I was out with my class on a field trip and we were walking by the side of the road going somewhere. We had divided into groups and I was walking with a couple of friends and the teachers were behind us talking amongst themselves. Anyways as we were approaching some bend on the road, we decided to cross over to the other side. We hadnt consulted with the teachers but we did decide despite it being a bend and us having no view of what was coming from the other side. Anyways, I went first and as I walked afew paces into the road, a car came by the bend and everything happened so fast but I found myself on the other side of the road. I remember being abit dazed and seeing all the teachers running towards me shouting and acting all concerned. Needless to say, after this tiny incident I wasnt allowed on anymore field trips. However, I dont know how I got to the other side, because all I can remember is seeing this car coming straight at me and me freezing like a rabbit caught in headlights.
Now, before I came to find out about higher densities, I just thought I was a very lucky boy maybe blessed with a rather caring guardian angel! The number of times I have been tempted just to step out into traffic again or put myself in danger just to see if some angel would swoop in to save me again is almost innumerable but no, I think I have used up all my save cards for one lifetime. Anyways, i'd like to know how other people would handle such events and what they would think of them?? :/
Anyways, this has recently led me to think about 2 particular events in my life that I had brushed underneath the rag.
The story goes like this, once when I was young, I think I might have been about 9 or something like that. Cant remember the exact age but around that number. I went on a swimming trip with my class. Now, as I couldnt swim, I and the rest like me were only allowed to stay on the shallow end of the pool. However, at one point, I moved all the way to the edge of the shallow and deep end and accidently went over to the other side. This was quite a horrific thing, I tried to get back but I couldnt, I tried flapping my hand to get attention but no one was seeing me. The only way I could get air, was whenever I sank I leaped up again to get some air before I sank again and I just did this repeatedly. I was desperately hoping that someone would help me, would notice that I was stranded and drowning. . Infact I was even baffled at how everyone else including the lifeguard was going on about there business, people playing in the water around me without having the faintest idea that somebody was drowning right near them.
Anyways, as I kept leaping up and down, my legs progressively got tired and every progressive jump wasnt as high as the previous and I was barely making it out the water to get air. At this point I was certain I was going to die. Water was getting into my lungs, I was losing strength and I was sure this was it. I actually remember thinking that this will make the papers. 'Primary School Child dies on swimming trip.' However, just as I was bracing myself for the rather bitter wet end of my rather young life, somebody swooped in from behind me and lifted me up and took me to the railing by the side of the pool and spoke into my ears that I should stay there and then he went. I looked behind me trying to catch a glimpse of this person but he wasnt there anymore. All I could see was my other classmates and the lifeguard still yapping away at some people on the other opposite side of the pool. Nobody even realised that I was so close to drowning and everything just went on as normal. I had to get out and nurse myself after having swallowed water and shaking like a leaf because of horror, you'd think if it was a lifeguard he would atleast stick around to make sure I was ok. I knew it was an adult who got me, despite me not having seen him because his arm was big, he just lifted me up with one hand and got me to the rails. So this cancelled out my classmates and left the only adult in the vicinity who was the life guard who was on the other side not paying any attention to anyone and generally not doing his job! Anyways, since then, I have never entered into a swimming pool.
Anyways, the point of me writing and sharing this is, is it possible that the person who saved me was like a 4th density person? I have recently thought about this and I find the question entering my mind is why would that happen? I mean people drown everyday!! I also read somewhere that, higher density STO forces dont intervene as it is a violation of free will but I am now left confused. Is there anything more I can do to try and understand this event or should I just stick it back underneath the rag?
I would like to say this is the only time, I have needed an intervention inorder to save my life but it isnt. Again, this happened about the same age, at the same school. I was out with my class on a field trip and we were walking by the side of the road going somewhere. We had divided into groups and I was walking with a couple of friends and the teachers were behind us talking amongst themselves. Anyways as we were approaching some bend on the road, we decided to cross over to the other side. We hadnt consulted with the teachers but we did decide despite it being a bend and us having no view of what was coming from the other side. Anyways, I went first and as I walked afew paces into the road, a car came by the bend and everything happened so fast but I found myself on the other side of the road. I remember being abit dazed and seeing all the teachers running towards me shouting and acting all concerned. Needless to say, after this tiny incident I wasnt allowed on anymore field trips. However, I dont know how I got to the other side, because all I can remember is seeing this car coming straight at me and me freezing like a rabbit caught in headlights.
Now, before I came to find out about higher densities, I just thought I was a very lucky boy maybe blessed with a rather caring guardian angel! The number of times I have been tempted just to step out into traffic again or put myself in danger just to see if some angel would swoop in to save me again is almost innumerable but no, I think I have used up all my save cards for one lifetime. Anyways, i'd like to know how other people would handle such events and what they would think of them?? :/