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I often do poetry as a way of coping. (As a survivor of child abuse with CPTSD - so they are usually very dark)
Havent done any in a long while, and deleted all the stuff i had.
This is one i did recently:-
It’s the edge that’s so painful.
Peering over, looking at what I’ll never be or everything I have been.
The one location I can view my pain and lifelong unmet wishes all from one place.
It’s that place, in between acceptance and rejection.... love and hate, where the pain is strongest.
It exposes me for never being enough. It’s a reminder of what none existence feels like.
Some say there’s nothing worse than never having expectations or dreams.
That’s when I’m reminded that I wish there wasn’t such a thing, and the dark abyss feels so much more comforting than a safe loving cuddle.
If only the edge didn’t exist.
Havent done any in a long while, and deleted all the stuff i had.
This is one i did recently:-
It’s the edge that’s so painful.
Peering over, looking at what I’ll never be or everything I have been.
The one location I can view my pain and lifelong unmet wishes all from one place.
It’s that place, in between acceptance and rejection.... love and hate, where the pain is strongest.
It exposes me for never being enough. It’s a reminder of what none existence feels like.
Some say there’s nothing worse than never having expectations or dreams.
That’s when I’m reminded that I wish there wasn’t such a thing, and the dark abyss feels so much more comforting than a safe loving cuddle.
If only the edge didn’t exist.