I had a dream which I want to share. Here is some background on the situation. This is more related to my younger sister who is in mid-forties, diagnosed with intestinal cancer 2 years back. She has a son who was in early 20's and husband who was in early 50's. Their trust in the doctor led them to a lot of chemo sessions to the point of her body not able to take it anymore. Later they switched it giving her chemo through veins. later they switched it to tablets. Her condition was up and down. I suggested keto, but somehow they haven't done much on that aspect, probably I haven't given clear instructions on it given that they are strict vegetarians. Best I can do initially reiki once in a while, i thought things calmed down ( could be my delusion). They tried some word-of-mouth alternatives methods which tend to be a mix of Ayurveda and pseudo stuff(which is a pretty common pattern in India), nothing seems to have changed anything permanently.
Last week, She called me and said she can't make it and wants to see me for the last time. She was in pretty bad shape like a Corp. It looks 2 weeks back her small intestines cancer grew to the point of bowel movement is completely impaired, her body is infected and started swelling abnormally. She is back in the hospital they put some tubes pump antibiotics into the body and drain the fuels from the tube that comes out from the nose. We prepared for the inevitable. I was told last week that it is just matter of days, cells are excreting water out preparing for the death and it is only 2 or 3 days maximum. My younger brother took leave and stay with her for the inevitable. I told them to pray and I was praying to DCM to help her according to her soul's requirement daily. My relationship with her is good, given that I am elder male (patriarchal society) in the house and lives in US, but she is not considerate to others need and there were always quarrels about her behavior as for was i can remember. Well, in group societies people live with all types of dysfunctionalities despite all the verbal fights and draining complaints about each other. This is the context behind the dream.
In the dream, We ( me, my sister who was not married yet) were young on the street, riots going on, police in red vans trying to control them. Location sounds more like Newark, NJ where i work ( we often joke that Newark, NJ is more like India- disorganized, nobody follows rules, police ignore them as if nothing happened or nothing can be done etc.). We were watching, police are going direction to control the riots. the scene shifted multiple intersections with the same thing parked police vans drive towars opposite directions to contain the riots. Scen shifted to another intersection where my sister was waiting, I was little far away, suddenly a gray bus stopped, she stepped in to bus. I was surprised and ran to the bus and told them "she is my sister, why are you taking her in". they asked me to get in and bus drove away. When i went into bus, i see she was sitting on a podium like a zombie in a big hall along with some people with a big TV on the wall hanging above them (like wizard of Oz castle screen). there are people who are facing them. I asked them why they took her. They said she was pregnat with alien baby. I tried to step forward to talk, but suddenly taken back to see some alien faces in humanoid body and in western suits. My mind raced about all 4D STS plans - hybrid creations etc. , but shut those thoughts for not to expose my self. I told them I need to talk my parents before i agree for it ( In patriarchial societs, male are responsible for girls. Surprisingly, I was not scared of them to ask them). After some time, I asked them what are the options which they gave 3, none of them appetizing. the message seems to be let her pregnancy to finish and suffer like every body else. Then scene shifted to corridor where i was talking to people (who are like me) about what they are trying to do. Not much came about it, mean while we have seen people coming out of the room and i was expecting to see my sister , but couldn't find her. I was wondering what to do. That's where dream ended.
Recent years, I tended to take dreams with grain of salt, though I analyze for the meaning. I find some dreams more like projections, some have some deeper meaning that can be related to what is going on my life. This dream falls under 2nd category. What is the message it is trying to say. May be our prayers are holding her and we have to make decision not to pray or some thing like let her go. Well, we don't know whether prayers works or not. Or simply my mind trying to process my thoughts in the information of the world i had. I don't know. I appreciate any input.
Last week, She called me and said she can't make it and wants to see me for the last time. She was in pretty bad shape like a Corp. It looks 2 weeks back her small intestines cancer grew to the point of bowel movement is completely impaired, her body is infected and started swelling abnormally. She is back in the hospital they put some tubes pump antibiotics into the body and drain the fuels from the tube that comes out from the nose. We prepared for the inevitable. I was told last week that it is just matter of days, cells are excreting water out preparing for the death and it is only 2 or 3 days maximum. My younger brother took leave and stay with her for the inevitable. I told them to pray and I was praying to DCM to help her according to her soul's requirement daily. My relationship with her is good, given that I am elder male (patriarchal society) in the house and lives in US, but she is not considerate to others need and there were always quarrels about her behavior as for was i can remember. Well, in group societies people live with all types of dysfunctionalities despite all the verbal fights and draining complaints about each other. This is the context behind the dream.
In the dream, We ( me, my sister who was not married yet) were young on the street, riots going on, police in red vans trying to control them. Location sounds more like Newark, NJ where i work ( we often joke that Newark, NJ is more like India- disorganized, nobody follows rules, police ignore them as if nothing happened or nothing can be done etc.). We were watching, police are going direction to control the riots. the scene shifted multiple intersections with the same thing parked police vans drive towars opposite directions to contain the riots. Scen shifted to another intersection where my sister was waiting, I was little far away, suddenly a gray bus stopped, she stepped in to bus. I was surprised and ran to the bus and told them "she is my sister, why are you taking her in". they asked me to get in and bus drove away. When i went into bus, i see she was sitting on a podium like a zombie in a big hall along with some people with a big TV on the wall hanging above them (like wizard of Oz castle screen). there are people who are facing them. I asked them why they took her. They said she was pregnat with alien baby. I tried to step forward to talk, but suddenly taken back to see some alien faces in humanoid body and in western suits. My mind raced about all 4D STS plans - hybrid creations etc. , but shut those thoughts for not to expose my self. I told them I need to talk my parents before i agree for it ( In patriarchial societs, male are responsible for girls. Surprisingly, I was not scared of them to ask them). After some time, I asked them what are the options which they gave 3, none of them appetizing. the message seems to be let her pregnancy to finish and suffer like every body else. Then scene shifted to corridor where i was talking to people (who are like me) about what they are trying to do. Not much came about it, mean while we have seen people coming out of the room and i was expecting to see my sister , but couldn't find her. I was wondering what to do. That's where dream ended.
Recent years, I tended to take dreams with grain of salt, though I analyze for the meaning. I find some dreams more like projections, some have some deeper meaning that can be related to what is going on my life. This dream falls under 2nd category. What is the message it is trying to say. May be our prayers are holding her and we have to make decision not to pray or some thing like let her go. Well, we don't know whether prayers works or not. Or simply my mind trying to process my thoughts in the information of the world i had. I don't know. I appreciate any input.
