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The Force is Strong With This One
I want to share it with you guys,I haven t slept enough hours these days and after this incident I m exausted!
I ll try to give you the whole picture.
I have a friend that her name is S.About a year ago,she met from facebook a guy whose name is D.he is about 45 divorced with daughter.
S. is very kind and passive person who has lost her father during her adolescence and from then she is having very hard times emotionally and economically.
When she met him,he was giving her his atm cards asking from her to check his money in the bank and she was seeing 400.000€ and high amounts like that.(they werent his money!)
So the day came that he asked from her to lend him 10.000 € that she got from a loan.
She came to me and told me that she wanted to go away from him but she was afraid that if she did this,she would lost her money..
After about 2 months they told me that she was pregnant!!!("nice"tactic huh?)
So me and D. many times got together for a coffee or a drink..
I have heard him many times mentioning his con attitude towards others.
All these binded with a lot of "spirituality"..his is a member of a yogic ashram and he always talks for these things..sadly S. bought into these....
So last week for the first time he asked me to lend him 36€ because his card had problems...he said that he would give me the money after a few hours...the same the next day and the same the other day..
It is not for the amount ,36€ its nothing but thinking that he was unjust even with me I decided to send an inbox to S.'s fb and tell her that her man is a conman even with me..
She sarcasticly replied me "ohh you got too into the row of the people that he is in debt"
And then we talked about how he managed to make her a baby and how ,without having the ability to feel ,pretends of caring for his 2 daughters.
I also told S. that he told me that he would take their daughter and dissapear if she fight with him again.S. told me that they never fought those days...
The other day,i received an inbox from him..he said that he would not give me the money because i was a sissy of talking to his wife.He also made a threat that if I would continue this thing,he would come to my job and smash everything!
About 5 days passed and today as I was walking a saw him sitting in a coffee shop with his laptop.
Quite automatically I came near him and in front a few people I said to him that he is a conman and for a tiny amount he got to all this trouble.he stood up and took a glass of water to break it to stab me.
He did nothing because I stepped back and started to leave from there.
He started shouting that I was a sissy for leaving.
I felt the pressure of the staring of the people and from shame I turned again to him.
He suddenly punched me at the face twice!
I wanted to run but I felt humiliated.I walked away from him and he continued to shout.
He started following me and as he was behind me I punched him in the face holdind my motorcycle key!!
He started bleedind and I went to some people there asking from them to help me find my glasses because they fell with the punches before and I couldnt see!
No one helped me and I was afraid to go there to search because D. Was there.
Some people told me that he took my glasses.I called the police but they never came,I phoned them again after 20 minutes and they told me to go the police station.
I went there but I didn t sue him because I know that he would see it as a chalenge.
I dont want to write more because it will get lengthy.There are some details that show me that he will never forget that I called him conman infront of S.'s relatives.I just told the truth and the thruth might make S. leave him.
I think that without reading the psycopathy material, I would be in a far worse emotional turmoil right now.I know that it doesnt deserve to expend my energy to attitudes like D's.
The things that freaks me out is that I lost my temper and went to him knowing that I wouldnt earn something,I Punched him with a key and made him bleed!!he took my glasses and I ll never get them back,I got humiliated to other people and also I m afraid of harassing me!
I m 33 and i have not any experience with things like that,I mean how to avoid them or to be rational or not to be bothered.
For many years I thought that I was some kind of special being ,clean from the worlds dirt and my spiritual seeking was enforcing this thesis.
I would dig my anger within or other non sweet feelings.
I m like an 8 year old that has no actual experience with the world outside!
Today I watched myself one more time behaving like a baby!
And also is this...ok I should grow up with patience,I know far more things I could even imagine some years ago but am I doing this right?my sweet feelings are gone,I m many times crabby,cynical and critical to myself and others!
My father was always critical to me and now I see that I m like him.
From child I was avoiding my fathers role but now I see that I have his dna and I should recocnize it in me to get further.
I dont know nothing how to cope with negative feelings.sometime I used to repeat a mantra and after a while everything was ok...now with situations like the above I feel poison running through my veins!
I hope that I didn t get tiresome!
I would like to have some objective feedback guys!
I ll try to give you the whole picture.
I have a friend that her name is S.About a year ago,she met from facebook a guy whose name is D.he is about 45 divorced with daughter.
S. is very kind and passive person who has lost her father during her adolescence and from then she is having very hard times emotionally and economically.
When she met him,he was giving her his atm cards asking from her to check his money in the bank and she was seeing 400.000€ and high amounts like that.(they werent his money!)
So the day came that he asked from her to lend him 10.000 € that she got from a loan.
She came to me and told me that she wanted to go away from him but she was afraid that if she did this,she would lost her money..
After about 2 months they told me that she was pregnant!!!("nice"tactic huh?)
So me and D. many times got together for a coffee or a drink..
I have heard him many times mentioning his con attitude towards others.
All these binded with a lot of "spirituality"..his is a member of a yogic ashram and he always talks for these things..sadly S. bought into these....
So last week for the first time he asked me to lend him 36€ because his card had problems...he said that he would give me the money after a few hours...the same the next day and the same the other day..
It is not for the amount ,36€ its nothing but thinking that he was unjust even with me I decided to send an inbox to S.'s fb and tell her that her man is a conman even with me..
She sarcasticly replied me "ohh you got too into the row of the people that he is in debt"
And then we talked about how he managed to make her a baby and how ,without having the ability to feel ,pretends of caring for his 2 daughters.
I also told S. that he told me that he would take their daughter and dissapear if she fight with him again.S. told me that they never fought those days...
The other day,i received an inbox from him..he said that he would not give me the money because i was a sissy of talking to his wife.He also made a threat that if I would continue this thing,he would come to my job and smash everything!
About 5 days passed and today as I was walking a saw him sitting in a coffee shop with his laptop.
Quite automatically I came near him and in front a few people I said to him that he is a conman and for a tiny amount he got to all this trouble.he stood up and took a glass of water to break it to stab me.
He did nothing because I stepped back and started to leave from there.
He started shouting that I was a sissy for leaving.
I felt the pressure of the staring of the people and from shame I turned again to him.
He suddenly punched me at the face twice!
I wanted to run but I felt humiliated.I walked away from him and he continued to shout.
He started following me and as he was behind me I punched him in the face holdind my motorcycle key!!
He started bleedind and I went to some people there asking from them to help me find my glasses because they fell with the punches before and I couldnt see!
No one helped me and I was afraid to go there to search because D. Was there.
Some people told me that he took my glasses.I called the police but they never came,I phoned them again after 20 minutes and they told me to go the police station.
I went there but I didn t sue him because I know that he would see it as a chalenge.
I dont want to write more because it will get lengthy.There are some details that show me that he will never forget that I called him conman infront of S.'s relatives.I just told the truth and the thruth might make S. leave him.
I think that without reading the psycopathy material, I would be in a far worse emotional turmoil right now.I know that it doesnt deserve to expend my energy to attitudes like D's.
The things that freaks me out is that I lost my temper and went to him knowing that I wouldnt earn something,I Punched him with a key and made him bleed!!he took my glasses and I ll never get them back,I got humiliated to other people and also I m afraid of harassing me!
I m 33 and i have not any experience with things like that,I mean how to avoid them or to be rational or not to be bothered.
For many years I thought that I was some kind of special being ,clean from the worlds dirt and my spiritual seeking was enforcing this thesis.
I would dig my anger within or other non sweet feelings.
I m like an 8 year old that has no actual experience with the world outside!
Today I watched myself one more time behaving like a baby!
And also is this...ok I should grow up with patience,I know far more things I could even imagine some years ago but am I doing this right?my sweet feelings are gone,I m many times crabby,cynical and critical to myself and others!
My father was always critical to me and now I see that I m like him.
From child I was avoiding my fathers role but now I see that I have his dna and I should recocnize it in me to get further.
I dont know nothing how to cope with negative feelings.sometime I used to repeat a mantra and after a while everything was ok...now with situations like the above I feel poison running through my veins!
I hope that I didn t get tiresome!
I would like to have some objective feedback guys!