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Hildegarda
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I have been writing about sociopathy, egoism and altruism on my blog. That prompted a lot of soul-searching in one of the regular readers. I make no diagnosis in this case -- judging from her other writings, she appears to have 'diagnosed' herself already, in other words, she has been aware of her nature in some way for a long time.
I wanted to offer for your consideration an example of someone's take on the often mentioned subject of Truth vs Lie. It is a view that is very foreign to me, and diametrally oppose what this site and this Work are based on. It is mind-blowing in a way, because I can't help thinking how many more decent, law abiding people around me think like this and live by this. Everything we read about and learn about really hits home:
I wanted to offer for your consideration an example of someone's take on the often mentioned subject of Truth vs Lie. It is a view that is very foreign to me, and diametrally oppose what this site and this Work are based on. It is mind-blowing in a way, because I can't help thinking how many more decent, law abiding people around me think like this and live by this. Everything we read about and learn about really hits home:
I can't remember if truth ever meant much in my life. I can count on the fingers of one hand all the times when I really wanted to let someone know the truth, when it was extremely important. It is rare that I am lacking attention so much that I would attempt to attract it using this extreme, irrational and ineffective method. With all that, I get very upset if in such situation I am 'found guilty' of telling the truth.
I began to tell the truth when I understood that no one has any criteria that would allow to distinguish the truth from a lie, with a high degree of precision. This means that one can tell the truth without consequences, same as lying! It was a real discovery that opened many extra doors:
- if someone didn't like my truth, I could say it was a lie, and enjoy peace and quiet.
- if someone didn't like my truth, I could maintain that it is truth, and fele proud of my principles.
- if someone didn't like my lie, I could say it was truth, and enjoy the other persons's confusion.
- if someone didn't like my lie, I could confirm it was a lie, and watch the other person feeling proud of his power of perception.
- if someone liked my lie, I could say that it is nothing but the truth, and bask in the sun rays of another's person's happiness.
- if someone liked my lie, I could say it is a lie, and have a nice juicy argument.
- if someone liked my truth, I could say it was a lie, and enjoy the feeling of power and security.
- if someone liked my truth, I could admit it is the whole truth, and enjoy openness and mutual understanding.
So it looks like I learned to use a truth as certain means, but still has no clue why anyone would need a truth as goal and an end, in and of itself.
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I usually say whatever comes to mind, without much thought as to whether it happen to be truth or lie. It is indeed very simple. Before, I used to wonder whether truth and lie have some special meaning and significance, but then, I settled on the thought that, from everything that is ever said, very little has any meaning and significance.
However, if I get myself in the situation when what was said has great importance either for me, or for a person I am talking to - that's incredibly stressful. Then I have to think, and there is no time to be lazy. In such situations the truth brings about such an adrenalin rush, that no lie could stand the comparison.