Broken piano
A Disturbance in the Force
Hello to you and this forum. This is my first post on the Internet and a complete coincidence (another topic for another day) to come here. I don't know how active this old post may be but I will add something of my own experience and a few thoughts for my own reasons. I have taken to the occasional research on anti-social personality disorders and psychopathy, which includes forums and chats for diverse perspectives.
Regarding myself: I have psychopathic tendencies. To be more specific. I have APD (Also ASPD, anti-social personality disorder) which tends into the psychopathic side of the state.
(A side note: I would like to clarify that APD is a scale, with dimensions and planes within it. APD generalizes autism, asbergers, sociopathy, psychopathy, and other conditions. The qualities and characteristics vary by each person and their "condition" but do remain a grayscale and generally untreatable, at least pharmacologically by medical and psychiatric professionals. Arguably this is because personality is a characteristic of psychology and not necessarily a disease. (More to follow on that line.)
I was personally and professionally diagnosed through the last 2.5-5 years, as I went through my first experience in the criminal justice system and the available rehabilitation. I have bounced back and forth most of my life being "good and bad" depending on one's point of view. I work and attend university in applied and theoretical sciences, for obvious reasons.
The argument here which I would like to present and is the most pertinent of my commentary, is that free will, be it an ability or capability, characteristic or capacity, is inherent to all people. Belief is a choice, as is non-belief, and the execution of free-will is much the same. Psychopaths have the greatest capacity of free will in the realm of anti-social personality disorders as they lack the confines of social dysfunction, comprehension, OCD, mannerisms, etc. The flaw, or disability, which I would argue, to align with your observations, and from my true experiences with psychopathy is this: the lack of confines of average morals and empathy which dictate expected social responses and actions. The inhibition and unlimited options are what lead to a perception of a "devil's path"; one which the "lost sheep of the flock may travel". This leads to my later hypothesis regarding a hero/villain perspective. It is a responsibility most don't realize or understand, including people with this condition, of having the ability to guide and to guard, or to sabotage and destroy, without hesitation or conditioning.
Introspection is uncommon to people with APD, especially sociopaths and psychopaths. I find myself fascinated with the aversion my friends and family initially had to the concept, and the years I was counseled without being told what I was being counseled for. Cognitive therapy is the primary treatment for these conditions. The APD brain is wired differently essentially, not incorrectly; chemicals and neurons firing and channeling just a little differently in every person. Obviously from a highly sensitive and empathetic person to cold killing machine it appears night and day to laymen and researchers alike. However, all people lie on a spectrum without borders - and all are as such: people.
Someone who feels bad or scared to do wrong to another or commit an unethical act has a safety net; it is easy to "choose to behave" when it's difficult to strike down our principles and be something different. When one has no boundaries and can do anything, with complete and true free-will, it is very difficult to will oneself to stop and follow rules that are essentially invisible and non-existent (to the psychopath). It takes far more effort when one doesn't have fear. It falls entirely on individual strength and motivation, especially since these types of people are usually alone psychologically as 97% of the world shares the common moral compass, and fewer still of the APD category (by the DSM-I'V) are even psychopathic. I have taken interest in the challenge of being a "better person". Fortunately my inhibition and high risk behaviour, along with the right circumstances aligned my actions with positive potential: helping car accident victims, fire-assistance, defending attack victims, offering first aid and emergent medical assistance. This is more difficult than victimizing the weak and unintelligent and cheating a flawed system, and therefore piques my interest. It is harder to do the "right thing".
To close my wordy endeavor I offer this. A single case of a psychopath such as myself who chooses to make the world better does make me emotional or empathetic. I simply do it because it interests me, not because I care. This disproves the universal quantification that psychopaths are slaves to a particular free will or path; they are simply people who are different. There is a multitude of moral people who commit immoral acts, and this is a far greater betrayal of ones character in the eyes of a psychopath.
Regarding myself: I have psychopathic tendencies. To be more specific. I have APD (Also ASPD, anti-social personality disorder) which tends into the psychopathic side of the state.
(A side note: I would like to clarify that APD is a scale, with dimensions and planes within it. APD generalizes autism, asbergers, sociopathy, psychopathy, and other conditions. The qualities and characteristics vary by each person and their "condition" but do remain a grayscale and generally untreatable, at least pharmacologically by medical and psychiatric professionals. Arguably this is because personality is a characteristic of psychology and not necessarily a disease. (More to follow on that line.)
I was personally and professionally diagnosed through the last 2.5-5 years, as I went through my first experience in the criminal justice system and the available rehabilitation. I have bounced back and forth most of my life being "good and bad" depending on one's point of view. I work and attend university in applied and theoretical sciences, for obvious reasons.
The argument here which I would like to present and is the most pertinent of my commentary, is that free will, be it an ability or capability, characteristic or capacity, is inherent to all people. Belief is a choice, as is non-belief, and the execution of free-will is much the same. Psychopaths have the greatest capacity of free will in the realm of anti-social personality disorders as they lack the confines of social dysfunction, comprehension, OCD, mannerisms, etc. The flaw, or disability, which I would argue, to align with your observations, and from my true experiences with psychopathy is this: the lack of confines of average morals and empathy which dictate expected social responses and actions. The inhibition and unlimited options are what lead to a perception of a "devil's path"; one which the "lost sheep of the flock may travel". This leads to my later hypothesis regarding a hero/villain perspective. It is a responsibility most don't realize or understand, including people with this condition, of having the ability to guide and to guard, or to sabotage and destroy, without hesitation or conditioning.
Introspection is uncommon to people with APD, especially sociopaths and psychopaths. I find myself fascinated with the aversion my friends and family initially had to the concept, and the years I was counseled without being told what I was being counseled for. Cognitive therapy is the primary treatment for these conditions. The APD brain is wired differently essentially, not incorrectly; chemicals and neurons firing and channeling just a little differently in every person. Obviously from a highly sensitive and empathetic person to cold killing machine it appears night and day to laymen and researchers alike. However, all people lie on a spectrum without borders - and all are as such: people.
Someone who feels bad or scared to do wrong to another or commit an unethical act has a safety net; it is easy to "choose to behave" when it's difficult to strike down our principles and be something different. When one has no boundaries and can do anything, with complete and true free-will, it is very difficult to will oneself to stop and follow rules that are essentially invisible and non-existent (to the psychopath). It takes far more effort when one doesn't have fear. It falls entirely on individual strength and motivation, especially since these types of people are usually alone psychologically as 97% of the world shares the common moral compass, and fewer still of the APD category (by the DSM-I'V) are even psychopathic. I have taken interest in the challenge of being a "better person". Fortunately my inhibition and high risk behaviour, along with the right circumstances aligned my actions with positive potential: helping car accident victims, fire-assistance, defending attack victims, offering first aid and emergent medical assistance. This is more difficult than victimizing the weak and unintelligent and cheating a flawed system, and therefore piques my interest. It is harder to do the "right thing".
To close my wordy endeavor I offer this. A single case of a psychopath such as myself who chooses to make the world better does make me emotional or empathetic. I simply do it because it interests me, not because I care. This disproves the universal quantification that psychopaths are slaves to a particular free will or path; they are simply people who are different. There is a multitude of moral people who commit immoral acts, and this is a far greater betrayal of ones character in the eyes of a psychopath.