No wonder, since you've been poisoned. I still am amazed at how calmly you can accept bodily harm to yourself.
To me, removal of social connections sounds like pure bliss. I tend to find 95% of people overbearing, too simple, opiniated without substance, and mainly just a mess I have to endure. The people I like and can hang out with are very far and few between. They must posses a high IQ, a morbid sense of humour, and must be well natured. For others I simply do not care, so this removing social contacts = existential threat, sounds to me like something out of a joke. Is it really so for other people? It seems completely unreal, and, like a joke.Well, never forget we are social beings and threat to remove social connections can feel like an existential threat.
Incidentally, I got (and still have tinnitus) and complete hearing loss in my left ear, partial loss in the right ear. The hearing loss has largle recovered, but the constant sound of cicada bugs in my head continues to be disconcerting and downright irritating.
Also, what are you going to do about your hearing loss, who are you going to hold responsible for it, and who is going to pay for your bodily harm?