Just shortly want to share the following and ask for some input.
The night before last I was sleeping and dreaming, seeing myself lying outside my front door - which was strange, because it indicated to me a pretty unprotected condition. My mother came up to me talking to me in her 'attack mode' (times when she simply attacks another, drains them).
Next thing was, I found myself back in my bed and had a creature lying on top of me. I had no fear, but was surprised. It had a human form, but the head seemed like only having a mouth. I grabbed for its arm and it was solid like my own. I then realized it was sucking on my neck with great pleasure, at the very spot where stories tell that vampires suck the blood out of their victims.
I suddenly became very angry and pushed the creature away, woke up and continued to angrily shout into the room: "Get away from me, get away from here!!!" I had no fear, only rage and indignation and I was deeply appalled at the lust it had while sucking on my neck.
I then recited The Prayer of the Soul and shortly afterwards did the Breathing Program. This all happened around 3 a.m.
When it was happening I think I've reacted correctly by fighting it (having in mind Laura's attacks and how she countered it by mere will power). But then, the next day came feelings of deep shock and I had to cry.
Now I figured that what I experienced was something that might have been there all along, draining me regularly, only it was the first time for me to experience/see it. Though I could be wrong.
I just wonder: were my actions enough, have I indeed reacted correctly, or is there anything else I need to do?
This night, for example, I woke up several times, then looked around whether the creature was there again. At other times I felt a tingling sensation at the spot it had sucked on me and I thought it was there again and I just couldn't see it. So I vehemently pushed it away "with my energy", if that makes sense.
Furthermore I'm still feeling that spot on my neck, as if there was a wound.
The night before last I was sleeping and dreaming, seeing myself lying outside my front door - which was strange, because it indicated to me a pretty unprotected condition. My mother came up to me talking to me in her 'attack mode' (times when she simply attacks another, drains them).
Next thing was, I found myself back in my bed and had a creature lying on top of me. I had no fear, but was surprised. It had a human form, but the head seemed like only having a mouth. I grabbed for its arm and it was solid like my own. I then realized it was sucking on my neck with great pleasure, at the very spot where stories tell that vampires suck the blood out of their victims.
I suddenly became very angry and pushed the creature away, woke up and continued to angrily shout into the room: "Get away from me, get away from here!!!" I had no fear, only rage and indignation and I was deeply appalled at the lust it had while sucking on my neck.
I then recited The Prayer of the Soul and shortly afterwards did the Breathing Program. This all happened around 3 a.m.
When it was happening I think I've reacted correctly by fighting it (having in mind Laura's attacks and how she countered it by mere will power). But then, the next day came feelings of deep shock and I had to cry.
Now I figured that what I experienced was something that might have been there all along, draining me regularly, only it was the first time for me to experience/see it. Though I could be wrong.
I just wonder: were my actions enough, have I indeed reacted correctly, or is there anything else I need to do?
This night, for example, I woke up several times, then looked around whether the creature was there again. At other times I felt a tingling sensation at the spot it had sucked on me and I thought it was there again and I just couldn't see it. So I vehemently pushed it away "with my energy", if that makes sense.
Furthermore I'm still feeling that spot on my neck, as if there was a wound.