REPLAY
After frequent many similar dreams, notions and feelings recently I read the fantastic book Replay, Laura recommended or mentioned many years ago. A science fiction novel by American writer Ken Grimwood.
Curiously it ends with this sentence:
Those years, those familiar and long-past years from 1988 to 2017, were his to live again, knowing the mistakes he’d made before. This time, Peter Skjøren vowed, he would do it right.
:)
In recent years this
intensifying new fresh series of dreams became a "second life" for me, where I go after sleep.. that other successful life that maybe my alterego is living in a parallel universe and its potential is merely trickling through in dreams, that successful life I always wanted to live, but never had the chance:
Always back to 19 years old. University environment and my despair, the constant stress in these new series of dreams how I will be able to cope with complex abstract thinking and analysis required for math, economics and physics, when I missed the basics that I should have mastered in high school.
In these new series of dreams (getting better and sharper with time like some favorite TV Shows having a surprising increase in production value and quality) these dreams have become sharpened in quality and freshness, focused, in recent years I met so many new more real people / actors that I began to yearn the moments leading to sleep: So I could continue that OTHER LIFE as a young man in the dream. Always young. At the start of my new life.
Remembering the great esoteric teachers' words referring to this group of terms Grimwood called REPLAY.
Regards Ken Grimwood , as usual nowadays, I felt
The Plateau - Laura mentioned frequently reading a book and the author unable to get past limits in understanding - in case of the writer of this book, how far his research and exceptional imagination was able to take him, -- then in light of all the books I read here and absorbed -- looking at the central idea, what it might represent. Still a superb accomplishment by the writer, compact, to the point and creative.
I needed to read something like this. The longing for my -our- real HOME density is getting too strong now. Impatience, anger. It appears this ~life time~timeline~ may be drawing to its close.
Everything is getting more intense, filled with energy. Probably, as was mentioned during sessions, the environment and people are starting to get hit by the first licks of the 1000x times Acceleration. Until the speculated separation, where many will continue in 3rdD and a hopefully good number of us go over
back to HOME, finally to satisfy and bring an end to this awful being homesick all the time and get an
easing and an end to this increasing feeling of "having gotten fed up to the gills with this density". To say it very politely.
Maybe I remember it wrong, but early in the Cassiopaean Experiment, there was one time only when the answers had a really peculiar flavor and there was a question why and an immediate 6thD-communicator-change-request for one who actually had been incarnated in a body. IIRC the original 6thD member relieved confessed a revulsion toward incarnation into a flesh body.
To say it politely, observing what we are able to do here with a very limited dancing floor and what we are actively barred from here in 3rdD by power of consciousness -- what we are not allowed to do, because it would bust The Control System -- I have grown to dislike 3rdD intensely, seeing the results of my M-hacking experiments and the realization about the absolutely limited options we have here: actively watched and barred from any significant upward motion, because that would mean we could become a serious "System Buster". To use the prophetic words of Barbara.