polarity

What polarity did Don Juan Matus have? What was the polarity of Don Juan Matus at the end of the incarnation? This man devoted all his time to HIS "spiritual" growth, leaving even his wife and child without means of livelihood for this. When it was necessary, he deceived, pretended, controlled...

So I've been reading back my notes I've taken throughout the past year and it feels as if some pieces of the puzzle are starting to come together. On the other hand it might also just be a subjective episode of pseudo-enlightenment I'm experiencing and that's part of the reason I want to share...