Chapter XXXV

The Way of The Fool

As the Wave advances, a number of very interesting dramas have been enacted; so interesting, and so relevant that I decided to rewrite the planned segment to include some new material. Yes, this is a diversion from the planned chronology, but I promise that it will be interesting, and we will get back "on track" with the next chapter

If the reader will recall, during our discussion of the number 11 and the 3-5 code in an earlier segment, I brought forward some unusual exchanges between myself and the Cassiopaeans regarding an 11 house zodiac. The very idea of such a thing is almost a heresy because the 12 house zodiac, the 12 tribes of Jacob, the 12 disciples, and all the other examples of the sanctity of the number 12 are so entrenched in our thinking that it is almost impossible to break away from that and think in different terms. I bring it up again because it has figured prominently in these present events.

After I had written about it, the matter of an 11 house zodiac was discussed on the Cassiopaea E-group, and one of the members, an extremely erudite student of arcane matters, a professional academic, made mention of a reference to an 11 house zodiac carved by an obscure 11th century monk in a monastery in Italy that he had come across in his reading.

An inquiry was made by a member of our research team and the source of this reference was revealed to be a book entitled Zelator: A Modern Initiate Explores The Ancient Mysteries by Mark Hedsel.

I went to Amazon to see if it was available, and read a couple of the reviews, none of which inspired me to think that I ought to have it right away. But I ordered it and wrote to the research team:

And the readers of these pages will probably know that the Cassiopaeans are very much "down" on rituals and "magick." So, naturally I really expected the book to be a waste of time and money. I was not even sure that there would be sufficient notes and references to tell me what I wanted to know. But, since I have been combing through an endless array of material for a number of years, looking for references to an 11 house zodiac, the promise of a single clue was sufficient to galvanize me to action.

The book arrived. Rather soon, even for Amazon, I should say, and was added to the ever growing pile of "to be read when I get the time."

Meanwhile, a significant drama was developing. It was not significant because it was a "big deal," but because of the way it opened certain doors. My plan for the present page was to continue with the chronology of sessions, including the background events as I went along in a more or less linear fashion. It is a crucial period, in which I learned the deepest lesson of my life: how we are controlled and programmed by our culture, our families, and everything around us through our very physiology. It was a lesson which drove home for me in an unequivocal way, how it can be that humans are "asleep" or "hypnotized." Until you have awakened, you simply cannot know the difference between being asleep and awake.

Well, telling this part of my story is, to say the least, painful. To talk about my own programming, and how difficult it was to even come to the awareness that I was programmed as everyone is, and what is required to overcome it, is not a subject that I relish. But there is no other way to give an exact meaning of what it means to be "asleep." It's all fine and good for Castaneda to write about how the Predator gave us its mind; for Gurdjieff and Ouspensky to write about the Evil Magician who hypnotizes his "sheeple"; for the Cassiopaeans to tell us that we are all programmed and/or hypnotized; but until you have experienced awakening, or at the very least, have had a graphic description of the state before and after, you simply cannot grasp it, I don't think. And, I had an ace in the hole.

Not only was I planning to talk about this most basic and cunning of "programs," I was planning to present some of the latest and most amazing scientific research on the subject from the fields of psychology, psychiatry, neurophysiology and neurochemistry which would give each reader a huge edge on dealing with these issues in their own lives and minds. Basically, the Cassiopaeans had pointed me in the right direction, I did the research and found the "smoking gun" that proved the case, and I was going to tell! It's pretty "hot" material, I rather think, because I am sure that the "Control System" does NOT want this kind of information right out there in plain view. Because, in fact, this information is at the heart of the Alchemical transformation process. Awareness and application of these matters will enable any individual who truly and deeply seeks transformation in a literal sense, to achieve it.

And, as usually happens, the Control System went into overdrive to try to stop me. And, in this instance, very nearly did it.

And curiously, the entire episode was a graphic demonstration of the very matter I was seeking to ameliorate. Not only that, it made me painfully aware that, even though I have passed through a number of "tests," have been tried by fire, have been initiated; I am still "a work in progress." In response to the very kind of programming I was planning on describing and exposing, "emotions were in motion" and even I was very nearly sucked into the pit. I was ready to delete the website, delete the E-groups, never write another word; and basically "throw in the towel."

And then I realized that this would be "acting as programmed." Everything that was being said and done was designed to excite emotions, to shut down thinking, to block higher understanding, and to "feed" the Predator. Remember what Castaneda said about the Predator's mind?

So, with this in mind, let's have a look at specific examples of the activation of the Predator's Mind. It began with the following post to the Cassiopaea E-Group, from which I have removed the identity of the individual posting it::

Now, I know that many, even most, of the readers will not recognize in the material what this individual has extracted from it. And this is one of the chief effects of the very kind of programming I was planning on talking about. And just to give you some idea, I have put in bold text some of the clues to the programming of the writer. These words tell us something of the mode, or circuit, from which she operates and views the world. And being able to detect, interpret, and master these circuits and "programs" is part of the Alchemical work of transformation.

Now, the first thing we note about her missive is that, as a result of reading the Cassiopaean material, she had a "reaction." This reaction actually, if she had taken the time to notice, was to feel more "alive," and to find more "meaning" in the world. It was a shock, no doubt, but as Sartre was noted to have said, he never felt so free as when he was in the French Resistance and might be arrested and shot at any moment.

Thus, even though she was not fully appreciating what had taken place in her psyche, this reader was actually flirting with the early stages of awakening.

Gurdjieff taught himself to seek crisis consciously, as a means of shaking himself awake. He wrote:

Gurdjieff's method included keeping his students in a perpetual state of alertness in order to solidify and "grow" the higher organs of perception. Only in this way can we achieve objective states of consciousness.

But, what happened to our reader? Well, the Predator's Mind, "baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now," drove her to retreat in terror from this objective consciousness. Even though it was awakened by the very shock she had received, her interpretation of this effect was that it was "dangerous," which is a rather graphic illustration of the contradictory nature of the Predator's mind.

But, what is this Predator's mind, exactly? It is the way our brains and nervous systems are set up - as delineated by our DNA - which includes certain early periods of Imprinting, which establishes our circuitry and thinking processes at an age and under conditions over which we have no control.

One of the main aspects of socio-cultural programming is what is called "imprinting." Human beings are born with certain basic behavior patterns built in their DNA. Just as a flower will follow a certain series of steps from the emergence of the seedling to the stage of producing a flower, human beings also develop certain characteristics only at certain times in their growth process. These sequences are something over which we have no control.

Konrad Lorenz illustrated this principle with his famous ducks. Ducks (and humans) are "programmed" at a certain time in their lives to "accept a mother" figure. If the proper mother figure is not there at that moment of "imprinting," whoever or whatever IS there will be the "mother image" in the mind of the duck. That is to say, when the appropriate (or inappropriate) object of need is presented to the duck at the correct time in its development, the object is labeled "mother" somewhere in the brain, and this label is next to impossible to erase.

Experiments were conducted with ducks which demonstrated that there is a critical age in hours at which a duckling is most responsive to "obtaining and labeling" a mother.

Similar studies were done with monkeys. These studies demonstrated that if a monkey has not received motherly stimulation before he is a certain number of weeks old, he will grow up to be cold, aloof, and unfriendly to his own offspring. The curious thing about the monkey experiments were that the sense of touch was more important than the feeding. A fuzzy surrogate with no milk was preferred over a wire surrogate with milk. This demonstrates a high level need for touching and caressing. It also suggests the "mode" of this imprint - sensory. Kinesthetic.

Evidence that there is a critical period for the "mother imprint" in the higher animals was emphasized in the monkey experiments. In one instance, the experimenter was not prepared for the arrival of a new baby monkey and had to create a makeshift "surrogate mother" using a ball for the head. This was provided to the baby, while the experimenter worked on a better model with a face. But, it was too late. The baby monkey had already bonded to the faceless mother and turned the face of the new model around so that it was blank. A mother with a face was simply not acceptable because the imprint had already been made.

Joseph Chilton Pearce writes:

We are all Kamala. We are all divine children raised by wolves.

But how can this be?

We are all programmed. Our programs are written in the circuits of our brains by those around us in our formative years, just as their programs were written during their formative years, and so on back into the mists of time. Each generation just adding a few more lines of code.

It is our ideas that shape our children. We provide what we may consider to be the ideal environment for the child, but our own programming determines what we may consider to be the "proper environment." Once we have provided the environment, we then want our children to like it, to approve of it, to agree with us that it is "right." And our ideas come from our culture. And our culture is created by... what? A Control System?

There is considerable evidence that "agreement" is also "in the genes." There seems to be a genetic drive toward communion with others, for speech and preferences and disposition. As newly born human beings, it seems we come into the world with intent to be in agreement with others. But the details of how we go about being "agreeable" is related to the imprints we receive at the various stages of childhood development.

Everyone carries in their genes, it seems, deep archetypes that are very much like a database program just waiting for someone to input data. The thing is, this database is only open to input for a limited period of time, and whatever data is entered during that time determines how all other data will be evaluated forever after. It will produce over and over again the same response to any set of stimuli that have one or more items that have been organized by the database. Anything that is not found in the database is "discarded." If the database is not utilized and no data is entered during the period of "readiness," or imprinting, that possibility goes dormant and diminishes.

The higher thinking functions, laid over the deep level archetype database, can be viewed as a kind of software that is linked to the database, and must constantly check with it in order to operate. You could think of it as a word processing program with a fixed dictionary and set of templates, and you can only write in it according to the templates, and you can only use the words that are in the already fixed dictionary. Since our brains are genetically designed to accept imprint conditioning on its circuits at certain crucial points in neurological development, these critical periods are known as times of Imprint Vulnerability. The imprint establishes the limits or parameters within which all subsequent conditioning and learning will occur. Each successive imprint further complicates the matter, especially if some of these programs are not compatible with others.

Different schools of thought describe these circuits as "stages of development." Some of the earliest work in these concepts has passed into our culture to such an extent that they have become slang terms such as "Oh, he's just anal-rententive," with very little actual understanding of what is meant by such expressions.

It seems that, according to research, the "older" brain structures - those necessary for basic survival, such as the brain stem - are imprinted in the earliest stages of development, and that the "newer structures," such as the mid-brain and cortex develop "superimpositions" upon the more primitive imprints. However, the earlier parts of the brain and their imprints form the foundation for how later imprints are responded to and continue to function after the higher thinking modes are developed.

In other words, if you are traumatized as an infant at a crucial point of Imprint Receptivity, it doesn't matter if you grow up to be the President of the United States - you will still be ruled by the imprint.

And, of course, we have a classic example in Bill Clinton. It didn't matter that he was behaving in ways to destroy his marriage and the emotional well-being of a well-loved child; it didn't matter that his behavior was destructive to the point of practically bringing the entire country to chaos; his inner emotional drives, determined in infancy by his imprinting, ruled his behavior. His Rhodes scholar intellect had nothing to do with it. And, sadly, this is actually exactly how everyone operates in principle, though not necessarily in specific. A lot of men do have the same imprint Bill has; only they aren't President of the United States. But then, women also have their own variations on this theme.

The first stage, or circuit, is the oral-passive-receptive, and is imprinted by what is perceived to be the mother or first mothering object. It can be conditioned by nourishment or threat, and is mostly concerned with bodily security. Trauma during this phase can cause an unconsciously motivated mechanical retreat from anything threatening to physical safety.

In recent times I have given a lot of thought to this particular circuit because of the matter of circumcision. Having come to the tentative idea that the whole Judeo-Christian monotheistic rant was a major control program, I came face to face with the question: how and why has it worked so well for so many thousands of years? More than that, how was it imposed in the first place?

I puzzled over this for weeks. I thought about several things that Friedrich Nietzsche had said that struck me like thunderbolts of truth once I was able to really step back and look at the matter:

But, that's not to say that Nietzsche was any paragon himself, with his mysogynistic, misanthropic rants! He was, in fact declared insane in 1888.

Nevertheless, he had a point about Judaism and Christianity (and any and all other monotheistic, dominator religions.) So, there I was, pondering this and trying to figure out HOW and WHY people could be so completely taken in by this utter nonsense? How can educated members of the human race, in this day and age, with all the resources of knowledge and awareness available to those who have the desire and energy to search for truth, possibly buy into such myths?

It just staggered my mind to think about it.

I went back in my thinking to the whole Jehovah-I AM deal; the Moses story and all that; and went over the details as they are presented in the Bible for clues. And I came up against that most interesting demand of that crafty Lizard, Jehovah/Yahweh: circumcision - on the 8th day, no less.

What better way to ensure a deep, subconscious, distrust of women - not to mention an overwhelming terror at the very mention of the pain and suffering that might ensue from breaking the monotheistic covenant - than whacking a guy's pee-pee when he is interested only in being warm, cozy, and filling his tummy with warm, sweet milk from mother?!

Whoah! Talk about your basic abyssal cunning there!

The first "circuit" is concerned with what is safe and what is not safe. In our society, money is one of the primary items that is intimately tied to survival and biological security. Money represents survival. In addition to that, people who have been traumatized during the imprinting phase of the first circuit tend to view other people in an abstract way. It is "us and them." They also tend to be very easily threatened by disapproval of any sort because disapproval suggests the idea of extinction or loss of food supply. And, finally, those who have been negatively imprinted at this stage tend to have a chronic muscular armoring that prevents proper, relaxed breathing; they are "up tight."

One of the main characteristics of people who are heavily controlled by this circuit, or are "stuck" in this "oral phases," is that when they sense danger of any sort, whether actual or conceptual, all mental activity comes to a halt. Such people are chronically anxious and dependent - mostly on religion. They are not able to really understand what other people are feeling or what can happen in the future in regard to relationships, given a certain present situation. They only understand what is happening "now," and they can only feel what THEY feel. They cannot accurately grasp what others feel because they relate to others only as sensory objects.

And, how many men are circumcised? A LOT, I can tell you. And, besides the Jews, for years, the AMA advocated and urged circumcision of American babies for "hygienic" reasons. Hmmm...

As a side note, trauma or failure to bond at this oral phase tends to also lead to weight issues - either overweight or underweight.

The expression of healthy growth through this phase is the ability to retain the state of consciousness of the "natural child" who feels safe in the world no matter what they encounter.

I would say that, in terms of the negative imprinting of this circuit, we have pretty well described William Clinton! I wonder if he is circumcised? (Ask Monica.)

The second stage, or circuit, the famous "anal phase," is concerned with keeping or letting go of experiences in interactions with others. The second circuit determines how an individual will expand their identity to include others. The drive of the second phase is to interact with other selves. It is this drive that either brings about the congregation of groups, or results in paranoid withdrawal from anyone who is "different." Trauma in the formation of this circuit (generally from 12 months to 24 months) can result in a lack of social feeling, a tendency to manipulate and exploit others for one's own gain, and cruelty to others whether conscious or unconscious. This is generally a result of a feeling of non-acceptance, that one is missing out on something that others have, the need for approval from others and basic lack of self-esteem.

It is during this phase that the "matrix" forms as a "semantic universe" of verbal structures. Language is conceptual, as we have discussed previously, and is one of the things that distinguishes 3rd density from 2nd density. Our concepts are a sort of "framework of perception" that we learn as we learn words. As we are learning our language, things such as "hot" and "cold," we are also learning that one thing is "good" or another is "bad." We can either handle things freely because they are "good," or "don't touch" because they are "bad." There is, in this phase, a tremendous drive in a child to "create order." This drive is aimed at grouping, identifying, correlating and naming everything. And, as this is being done, there is a constant check with the parents and others interacting with the child as to whether this is "bad" or "good" or "real" or "not real." What the child is doing is defining not only himself, but his entire world. It is at this stage that most of our complex belief systems are formed. Everything that surrounds him is raw material for the child. The Matrix is created by the guiding actions and responses from the other minds around him. The matrix is, in reality, a gigantic conditioning system. And we insert our children into it through our own actions.

The mind of an infant is said to be

Those with strong positive 2nd circuits imprints are able to "feel" for others in terms of a sense of concern or identity by association. They are willing to reach out and acknowledge the being of another.

However, due to the most common imprinting of our society, which is negative, most of this "reaching out" is in the context of "territory" that involve emotional con games, pecking order, rituals of domination or submission. It has been noted that a lot of people with negative 2nd circuit imprinting can be found in military or hierarchical organizations where there is constant striving to "please" someone in order to maintain or rise in status.

This second circuit is generally most powerfully imprinted by the nearest "alpha male" or the earliest perceived dominant male figure in a person's life. This circuit is also very often referred to as the "ego" because it mistakes itself for the whole self.

Individuals who are ruled by negative 2nd stage imprinting generally use a lot of "anal expressions" or language relating to excretory functions and parts of the body. They have inveterate "potty mouth."

Very often those with heavy imprints in the second stage are either very concerned about physical fitness and body structure as a mode of power or just simply power over others in general. They fear thinking and feel that the best response to a problem is to "frighten it away."

The reality structure of the 2nd circuit is the prevailing mode of modern society which is why most issues end in confrontations that bring out both bullying and cowardliness - hallmarks of 2nd circuit trauma.

The third circuit/stage is charmingly referred to as "phallic." Don't ask me why this term has been selected over all others but it has to do with the fact that the imprinting stage is associated with the child's discovery of his/her genitals and this period also seems to partly determine gender role identification as well as one's later attitudes toward the body and sex. It is also called the Oedipal or Electra stage.

This circuit continues to be imprinted and conditioned by symbol systems, i.e. words and concepts, however with subtle conceptual complications. The child is beginning to be able to understand complex symbolism and such things as "now" and "later" and "soon" and "never." These concepts are intimately connected to the ability to tolerate separation as well as to mourn if the idea of grief is introduced and demonstrated by a role model.

So, essentially, we find that the 3rd stage has to do primarily with time and spatial concepts - with what is the "real world" and what is not.

The part of the brain that is developing during this phase is the cerebellum and it is supposed to coordinate the "lower brain" functions with possible action. This part of the brain and its imprinting determines our ability to change and adapt. This is what makes us able to discriminate and compare with logic and comparative analysis. Its functions operate like a computer; it scans, categorizes and selects by cross-referencing and coding information. It is this part of the brain that makes us able to weigh choices and make decisions.

In most people, however, due to traumatic or too early potty training during the "anal phase," this part of the brain becomes the slave of the emotions of the second and first circuits. That doesn't mean that it cannot work and do its work well in terms of scanning, categorizing and coding information; but if there is trauma, depending on the severity, it can be very difficult for this part of the brain to function as the coordinator it was meant to be. The intellectual function can be scholarly as all get out, but there is no possibility of development of higher emotions. Such a condition can lead to a ruthless intellectual who tortures or kills others in the name of religion. These people have packaged their environment in terms of heavy sanctions; taboos, rules, laws, prohibitions, faith and dogmatism. Much of this will be unconscious and will pass as "common sense" or "common decency" or "it's right, and that's all there is to it!" Anyone who challenges such a person is a heretic, a traitor or a lunatic. They also use a lot of language that refers to sexual functions.

Those who are dominated by the 3rd circuit respond to problems by "reasoning" it out, even if their reason is being directed by the emotions of the 1st or 2nd circuits. When this is the case, they could be called a "third circuit robot" because they simply cannot break free of the emotional content of their rules and dogma. For such people, the rest of the nervous system has, for all intents and purposes, stopped growing.

There are two curious manifestations of this circuit. If the 1st and 2nd circuits are basically healthy, and the 3rd circuit is not traumatized in any notably serious way, but no effort to develop higher faculties is made, the "normal conscious mind" has two basic "tracks." The one is the desire to use the intellect to prove that much of human experience, even including the reality itself, is delusion or illusion. Everything is mysterious and hallucinatory. The second is to use the intellect to prove that nothing exists BUT the material world and anything mysterious is viewed as hallucination, coincidence or sloppy research! Gurdjieff talked about these things in great detail, and clearly his understanding of the problem was deep and profound. Not only that, we will soon see how closely Gurdjieff's view is to very modern research in neuropeptides - the "Molecules of Emotion."

So, having all of this to think about, let's go back to the message of the E-group member:

She has a "tireless appetite to sort out the truth of things." Truth is something to be "eaten." In every sentence about "beauty and wonder" and the goodness of physical life, the writer has used the expression "I FEEL." Everything that has to do with the material world is "awesome" or "incredible" and other superlatives. In every remark about the Cassiopaeans, which is singularly suspicious and negative, she has used the terms "I THINK." Thus we suspect that this is an individual who is very suspicious of thinking and this is further emphasized by the suggestion to "put on our thinking caps." Thinking cannot be abstract, it must be "felt." The general tone of the letter is to retreat from thinking into feeling. That is one of the biggest clues that the Predator's Mind is operative. Her first circuit imprint is activated.

This writer claims to have read something that is simply not true, i.e. that the Cassiopaeans have made a "direct claim that they also dictated the Marciniak info as Pleadians." I will ask the reader who wishes to find what the Cassiopaeans have said about this to use the search function on the site, and to THINK about the specific questions and answers, to see that the above is a clear example of "twisting" the text and inference of that which was never implied. It is, in fact, a very clear example of what Neuro Linguistic theories refer to as a "kinesthetic" dominant mode of cerebral processing. This person was being shocked into thinking and retreated in terror from the threat to what "felt safe."

[Additional note: in response to others who have written to say that they have this same impression, I have been forced to rethink the above. Apparently, it is my failing and assumption. Please read Transient Passengers for a fuller treatment of this matter.]

The last, and most interesting remark was the "sign off" remark. As I have noticed on many occasions, when the Predator's Mind is activated, it seems always to need, due to ego, to give some "sign" of its presence. And, as the reader will also note, I adhere to the Sherlock Holmes School of Research.

The trifle in this case was the remark: "Jumping in with a thud.... " This phrase triggered the insight of what was happening to this reader. She was being overwhelmed by the forces that act on a person when they are confronted with truth and the possibility of awakening. Castaneda was to experience it in a more direct manner:

Well, at the time this posting was made, I had a choice to make: should I take the several days necessary to address each and every point that was made by this writer, detailing the material I was already working on for the website, thereby putting off the publishing of the page for all the other readers, or should I just ignore it, thinking that the other, more developed members of the group could deal with it and I could continue working?

I opted to ignore it and keep working. But I didn't realize how great a hold the Predator has even on those of us who can see through most of the most obvious manipulations and maneuvers. This was, indeed, a subtle attack and it "fed" the Predator in many other members of the E-group. In fact, it woke up the Predator in people I had thought were well past this kind of subtle manipulation. As I read the many responses to this post, I knew that the present work, which dealt with these very issues was the very key that needed to be given to the readers in order to unlock the prison of their own minds.

Ark took time out from his work to respond to the above writer so that I could keep working:

But in counterpoint to my realization of the need to keep working, to get the information out as soon as I could, the drama escalated. Another member of the E-group posted.

I have placed in bold text the words that provide clues to the "circuit dominance" in the above writer. This is an individual who is dominated by the 3rd circuit under the control of the 2nd! . In Neuro Linguistic theories, it is called "visual." Notice the preponderance of terms relating to eyes and seeing or blindness. The 3rd circuit is also the circuit in which the concepts of time are dominant - linear time - and he evinces fear when he mentions the references to "probability" and "future."

The 3rd circuit is the "thinker," the creator of the "semantic universe," as we will discuss further on, and it tends to categorize everything in the strictest terms of black and white, and wants very much to use its abilities - to "think" and "analyze" and "inform" and "consider" and "teach." This individual fears "audition," as well as anything that is not hard and material, or powerfully based in linear thinking, as is indicated in the remark "shapeshifting story about "353535" which drives her mad the instant she hears it." His remedy for this is "we must think..."

The problem with the 3rd circuit is that it very often is dominated by damage to the 2nd circuit and produces what is called in psychological parlance a "2nd circuit robot." There is good development of the cerebral function, and a desire to use it as the dominant mode. But the anal phase overlay on the phallic phase development is evident in the fact that the above writer has needed constant monitoring and requests to not use profanity on the list.

He is, in fact, one of the main reasons we opted to enforce a rule on the moderated list that no profanity is allowed. There is a higher reason for this, which involves the creation of an environment in which the elements of the higher circuits can develop, but that's another matter. The fact is, the above post arrived with profanity in the title, which was deleted before it was forwarded to the group. I then responded to it:

And he was removed from the list. His antics had been reprimanded numerous times both on list and privately. And the final thing was: his proposal to "drop all channeling" was a clear indication that he did not belong on a list whose premise was stated in the list rules, that it is a group formed to discuss channeling!

Naturally, I wasn't happy to delete a person from the list - most particularly one who was so evidently capable of work in the 3rd circuit. But, there are other matters to consider which will be seen as we proceed here.

All of this drama was acting on my own programming. It is said that the true High Initiate is one who can no longer cry. They feel compassion, but it is cosmic and non-attached. I'm not there yet. I still cry. And, I am always reminded of the shortest verse in the Bible where it says: "Jesus wept." [John 11:35. How's that for your 11 and 3-5 code?] He had not yet been fully initiated, after which he left the "planet", so I expect that, as long as I remain, I will weep. And, as the drama continued on another front, I did.

A message was posted to the unmoderated Chat group, of which I am not a member, but another member on that group forwarded it to me privately. It was written by a former member of the Cassiopaea Egroup who had been the first to be removed because - well, you will see why:

I think that the reader will now be able to go through this message and determine which circuits are dominating.

Now, this individual is one who began writing to me privately some time ago, and I spent many hours patiently answering his questions, which seemed to be honest and sincere. However, no sooner would I deal with one issue by directing him to the pages where it was already addressed, he would bring up others that were also already addressed on the site. And most of his questions were quite similar to the "twisting" phenomenon we have seen in the first post reproduced here, where the writer either did not read the words carefully, or did not consider the context carefully, or simply could not receive what was being said. What she mirrored was not what was viewed. So, I realized that this was an individual who was also very much stuck in the 2nd circuit, only his trauma must have been severe. I wanted to ensure that he, as anyone else, had the opportunity to work with others to undo this programming, since he was asking for help, or so it seemed. So, I had sent him to the Egroup so that I could get back to work. By this time, I had given him several days of my time with no end in sight. I needed to get to those issues with which he was dealing, and the only way I could do it was to continue working and not be distracted.

The only problem was, as soon as he had an audience, something strange began to occur. He used many "nom de plumes," or email "handles," and was, apparently, active on several other groups because many people found his posts here and there and forwarded them to me. I filed them away and kept working.

Finally, as the archives on the Cassiopaea Egroup will show, he became so disruptive that dozens of people were writing to us privately asking to have him removed. And it was as a result of this that we realized that, to preserve the higher circuit thinking environment of the Egroup, we must begin to moderate it and give it more time and attention than we had up to that point.

Naturally, the announcement that the group would henceforth be moderated raised a hue and cry about "censorship" and what might be our "dark motives." There were no intentions to censor. All subjects were still open to discussion; it was just that the objective of the Egroup had been, from the beginning, a forum to aid in the mutual uncovering of truth and programming and sharing of knowledge and experiences. And the free will of those who were there in congruence with that intent was of paramount importance.

But, many of the members could not see that the very emotional reaction they were having was their own emotional programming. Free Will means Free Will for ALL, which often requires the refusal of control by someone who wishes to deprive others of Free Will. In this case, one or two individuals wanted, and attempted, to impose their Will and thoughts on all the other members of the group. And, when this control was refused, they then accused us of the very thing they were attempting to do. And, naturally, those who shout the loudest get heard, and it definitely pushes all the buttons that turn on the Predator's mind.

And the very thing that I want people to realize is that we ARE programmed, and one of the biggest controls on our lives and minds and our very fate is our own emotions! As the Cassiopaeans have remarked:

...Vibrational frequency level involves nature of being and emotion, not intelligence.

And then at a later session:

Notice particularly the remark: Emotion that limits is an impediment to progress. Emotion is also necessary to make progress in 3rd density. It is natural. When you begin to separate limiting emotions based on assumptions from emotions that open one to unlimited possibilities, that means you are preparing for the next density.

Now, I have underlined the remark about the natural necessity of emotion for progress so that those who will tend not to see it won't be able to miss it. Nobody is saying that emotions are bad or that we should not have them. They are NATURAL and NECESSARY. (Just to repeat it again.)

But, the crucial point is that emotion that limits is an impediment to progress. Think about that long and hard. Then, think about the process of separating limiting emotions based on assumptions from those that limit, and the fact that this opens one to unlimited possibilities, you may begin to get a glimmer of the point we were trying to make when we reorganized the Egroup.

Nevertheless, to satisfy everyone, we created the CassChat group that is completely unmoderated, and of which I am not even a member. This was to enable everyone who had "found each other" via the website to be able to stay in touch and to do whatever they liked whether it was exchanging recipes or trashing Ark and Laura.

There are many members of the Egroup - the majority, in fact - who are becoming very adept at spotting these very things. They can, for the most part, coolly and objectively look at their own Predator's mind and their souls and true essence is definitely "holding its own!"

But, even some of these - including yours truly! - are subject, on occasion, to certain "triggers." And the next event really pulled mine!

The item in the last post above that caught my eye was the following:

I had no idea what this other e-group was. And the button that was being pushed was, of course, an attack on my husband. Even if the reaction in me was very mild, because I have learned to tolerate an almost infinite amount of abuse, I was curious as to what was meant by the remark "Everyone on Mashtrioka thinks your a total jerk." Who were these people who thought my husband was a jerk??!

I decided to have a look.

Ark didn't think it was a good idea because he knows better than others that I still cry. But I insisted. I'm a big girl now, I can take it! Bring it on!

Famous last words.

We subscribed to this group and I noticed that a direct quote from the Cassiopaeans was on the main page, and that was nice. Even if it was not sourced, that was okay. My general attitude is to give the material away anyhow, so no big surprise.

But then I started to read some of posts. And a very deep and primal program was activated. The program called "betrayal."

And the bomb went off.

After reading several of the posts, I could read no more. I scanned the list of names and saw some of my friends there. I could not but think that they were participants in a tremendous deception and betrayal, writing one thing to me, and on the Cassiopaea Egroup, and here, in this other group, participating in what is to me the most hideous of acts: betrayal and deception. The essence of STS.

And, for a brief moment, I wanted all of them to know that I now knew who they were and what they were doing. I forwarded one of the posts that was most revealing to the Cassiopaea Egroup. Knowledge protects, right? But this was actually a more or less combined activation of the 1st and 2nd circuits in myself. Not only was I retreating, I was going to "scare away" the threat!

These circuits had been "turned on" inside me. The only thing is, I KNEW what was happening! I could feel the neuropeptides rushing out of these brain centers, flooding my system and binding to the receptors all over my body. Anyone who has ever been in this position will know what I am talking about.

The difference is: I KNOW that it is CHEMICAL. I know that it is a result of a circuit activation that connects elements of a present experience to something deep in the past; infantile responses. I know that the reaction is encoded in the brain, and that the chemicals are released according to a single trigger.

If you have a negative experience as an infant in a room painted blue, you will be programmed to react negatively to blue, and whenever you are in a blue room your brain will release the same neuropeptides that were released at the very time of the infantile experience. You won't know WHY you feel "frightened" or "panicky" or "sad" or whatever the negative experience produced, and you will think it is something to do with whatever else is going on in that room, or who you are interacting with, at that moment, without even being aware that the whole experience is being triggered by the memory of the negative experience as an infant in a blue room. Your mind will seek to rationalize the feeling by blaming it on anything or everything, because the idea that the color of the room could be the cause is too illogical.

Sure, maybe you avoid blue. You don't "like" it, but you surely will never admit that it can control your emotions and your experiences. It will be rationalized as a "preference." No reason, just is. Well, there are a lot of things in our lives that we think they are "us,"