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The
Cassiopaean sessions during the early months of 1996 were often quite
personal. This was a consequence of the tremendous changes going on
in my life, many of which were occurring at some other level of reality
and could be sensed only dimly and "through a glass darkly."
When I look back over the events, the transformations, I can see the
pattern. But, at the time I could see nothing but the desperate struggle
to "normalize" and "stabilize" my world which was
growing more bizarre by the day.
With
hindsight, I understand that I was playing out a drama - a timeless
vision - that is derived from the mythology of ancient times that is
everywhere the same. And, having passed through this initiatory "script,"
I write these pages in an effort to convey what these stories teach
us.
In
my research into the origin and meaning of the experiences of the Cassiopaeans,
I have delved into the work of many who have gone before in the effort
to solve the Great Mystery. Today, we have archaeologists digging up
evidence all over the globe; ethnologists are recording stories from
peoples East and West; and a generation of orientalists have revealed
to us the sacred writings of the archaic peoples that gave birth to
our religions and cultures. Meanwhile, scholars are organizing and analyzing
material relating to the psychological bases of language, myth, religion,
art and ethics. And, quite remarkably, the revelations of the mind emerging
from the field of psychology and biology are offering clues to the ancient
technology depicted in myth and legend. Because, in the end, it is becoming
increasingly clear that the logic, the heroic gestures, and the deeds
of myth are with us today.
My
own experiences, in this sense, could even be compared to a sort of
enacting of the Cosmic Archetype of renewal of time.
In
the myths of archaic peoples, the rites and beliefs surrounding the
idea of the "Regeneration of Time" vary from group to group
and place to place. But, the themes are still fairly consistent in that
before time can be renewed, there are certain phases of chaos that must
be endured. Of course, I didn't know all this at the time; I just suffered
and acted the part in complete ignorance of what was taking place. And
it may be so that my ignorance of the hold the archetype had on me was
essential to its work.
The
energies of our archetypes can "fill us with radiant light, or
overwhelm us with destruction and despair. They are our gods within,
spiritually and instinctually." [Woodman, Leaving my Father's
House, 1992]
Archetypal
energies can be activated in a variety of ways. A specific archetype
can be activated in the psyche of one individual, or in the collective
psyche of a group or a culture. The danger lies in not understanding
the nature of the archetype - in believing ourselves to BE the archetype
itself and thereby confusing our personal values with some absolute
and exclusive version of the truth. The crucial point that must be understood
is the difference between allowing the archetypal energies to act through
the self, as opposed to believing that one has become the deity.
This distinction is the difference between hubris and humility. One
must realize that one is a simple and sacred soul who has, for unfathomable
reasons, been graced by the gods. Any attempt to alter the drama, any
idea that one IS the archetype, and therefore has the right or ability
to choose to act other than according to the divine script, can end
in disaster.
So,
it's really a good thing that, at the time and at that level of knowledge,
I had no idea what was happening!
The
essential part of the Renewal of Time archetype is the idea of the end
and the beginning of a temporal period based on biocosmic rhythms and
forming part of a larger system. The purging and expulsion of sin was
the chief drama before the New Year could be born. Mircea Eliade writes:
...This
annual expulsion of sins, diseases, and demons is basically an attempt
to restore - if only momentarily - mythical and primordial time, "pure"
time, the time of the "instant" of the Creation. Every New
Year is a resumption of time from the beginning, that is, a repetition
of the cosmogony. The ritual combats between two groups of actors,
the presence of the dead, the Saturnalia, and the orgies are so many
elements which ...denote that at the end of the year and in the expectation
of the New Year there is a repetition of the mythical moment of the
passage from chaos to cosmos.
...In
each of these systems we find the same central idea of the yearly
return to chaos, followed by a new creation.
...Baptism
is equivalent to the ritual death of the old man followed by a new
birth. On the cosmic level, it is equivalent to the deluge: abolition
of contours, fusion of all forms, return to the formless. ...All the
rest is only the application, on different planes answering to different
needs, of the same archetypal gesture: the regeneration of the world
and life through repetition of the cosmogony. [Eliade, The Myth
of the Eternal Return, 1954]
The Hermetic
maxim: "As above, so below," may be a key to understanding
the events and experiences of the Cassiopaean communications. Joseph
Campbell remarks that:
...Myth
is the secret opening through which the inexhaustible energies of
the cosmos pour into human cultural manifestation. [Campbell,
The Hero With a Thousand Faces, 1949]
Of course,
at the time, I had no idea that I was acting out an archetype. The very
thought would have filled me with horror. I remember that, back in the
80's when I was wrestling with the problem of why I had been born with
such a huge question mark in my mind - with no apparent outlet for this
questing energy - I knew that I must begin to do something. At the time,
meditation seemed the right answer, and I began the practice with some
hesitation. I was hesitant because I was afraid of change. On the one
hand, meditation might change my perceptions and perspective enabling
me to be calm and accepting about the restrictions of my life. As much
as I needed this calm, that scared me. What if I accepted the restrictions
and I was supposed to do otherwise? Would contemplating my navel turn
me into a mindless zombie, fit only to stand on street corners and sell
pencils? On the other hand, meditation might actually elevate the dissatisfaction
I was already feeling with my life, in which case I might take steps
to change it; and that scared me! I wanted things to change, but only
a little, and only the way I wanted them to change!
I had my
life set up and organized; I was married and had children and I had
a "fairy tale" idea of how marriage and raising children was
supposed to turn out. Anything that threatened that vision was to be
rejected, pushed away and denied.
But there
was the ever increasing problem that the fairy tale was NOT happening
according to plan, so something HAD to be done about that! I was really
between a rock and a hard place; and for lack of any other alternative,
I began to meditate. When you are between a rock and a hard place, the
only way out is up.
And, as
we know, that decision led, step by step, to the communication with
the Cassiopaeans. And, all through the process, for over 10 years, I
struggled to have my cake and eat it too. I was determined to grow and
learn and expand my spiritual horizons as far as was possible; and I
was going to keep on living my regular life too, damn it!
I had read
and heard about, and even had seen, many instances when one partner
in a marriage would "grow and change" and the other would
either remain static or go exactly the other direction, and the marriage
would end up on the rocks as a result of the widening gulf between the
partners. My opinion of this phenomenon was rather narrow and judgmental.
How could something that was "spiritual" lead to so much pain
and heartache? If these people were really as spiritual as they claimed
to be, wouldn't they be able to use their "spirituality" to
preserve their marriages and contribute to the growth of their spouses?
Doesn't charity begin at home? It seemed to me that the problem was
a lack of communication. Surely if the partners made the effort to communicate,
to share all that was happening inside them, to support and encourage
the other to remain at their side, such problems would not develop.
So, of
course, from the very beginning stages of my quest, I was talking, talking,
talking. I explained the way I saw the problems. I explained what I
had learned about people with similar problems. I explained the solutions
that were possible. I explained my plan to seek solutions so that our
"fairy tale" could manifest.
I sent
away for books and tapes for meditation, for mind re-programming, for
every aspect of "changing" one's reality that seemed to be
a problem in our lives. I wanted to help my husband overcome his negative
view of the world so that his family could follow his lead into happiness
and prosperity. I wanted to gently and subtly encourage a new vision
that he could embrace which would enable him to manifest his dreams,
thereby setting an example for the children and becoming the true, knowledgeable
and fearless head of the household of my fairy tale. I wanted open communication
and true intimacy of thought, emotion and soul in my marriage. I was
ready and willing to strip my soul naked in order to "break the
ice" and make my husband comfortable in doing so as well. I had
been "called," and I chose to follow the call. I didn't want
to go and leave him. I desperately wanted him to come with me. If he
did, I was sure that he would then manifest as "The One."
I understood,
in a sense, what I was seeking: I was looking for the Ark, for redemption,
for the hero whose existence would liberate me. Joseph Campbell writes:
The
hero is the man of self-archieved submission. But submission to what?
That precisely is the riddle that today we have to ask ourselves and
that it is everywhere the primary virtue and historic deed of the hero
to have solved. [Campbell, 1949]
...Schism
in the soul ...will not be resolved by any scheme of return to the
good old days, or by programs guaranteed to render an ideal projected
future, or even by the most realistic, hardheaded work to weld together
again the deteriorating elements. Only birth can conquer death - the
birth not of the old thing again, but of something new. Within the
soul...[Toynbee, A Study of History, Oxford, 1934,
Vol. VI, pp. 169-175]
I
didn't understand that, in beginning the process, by answering the call,
I had begun the work of the hero myself.
The first
work of the hero is to retreat from the world scene of secondary effects
to those causal zones of the psyche where the difficulties really
reside, and there to clarify the difficulties, eradicate them in his
own case (i.e., give battle to the nursery demons of his local culture)
and break through to the undistorted, direct experience and assimilation
of what C.G. Jung has called "the archetypal images." This
is the process known to Hindu and Buddhist philosophy as viveka, "discrimination."
The archetypes
to be discovered and assimilated are precisely those that have inspired,
throughout the annals of human culture, the basic images of ritual,
mythology, and vision. These "Eternal Ones of the Dream"
are not to be confused with the personally modified symbolic figures
that appear in nightmare and madness to the still tormented individual.
Dream is the personalized myth, myth the depersonalized dream... in
myth the problems and solutions shown are directly valid for all mankind.
Such
a one's visions, ideas, and inspirations come pristine from the primary
springs of human life and thought. Hence they are eloquent ... of
the unquenched source through which society is reborn. The hero has
died as a modern man; but as eternal man - perfected, unspecific,
universal man - he has been reborn. His second solemn task and deed
therefore is to return then to us, transfigured, and teach the lesson
he has learned of life renewed. [Campbell, 1949]
And
what is this lesson? Ah! Let's not jump ahead! We are still in the past
in this narrative! But, Joseph Campbell has defined the heroic journey
as follows:
A hero
ventures forth from the world of common day into a region of supernatural
wonder: fabulous forces are there encountered and a decisive victory
is won: the hero comes back from this mysterious adventure with the
power to bestow boons on his fellow man.
...The
adventure of the hero normally follows the pattern of ...a separation
from the world, a penetration to some source of power, and a life-enhancing
return.
...The
really creative acts are represented as those deriving from some sort
of dying to the world...
The return
and reintegration with society, which is indispensable to the continuous
circulation of spiritual energy into the world, and which, from
the standpoint of the community, is the justification of the long
retreat, the hero himself may find the most difficult requirement
of all. ...There is danger that the bliss of this experience may annihilate
all recollection of, interest in, or hope for, the sorrows of the
world; or else the problem of making known the way of illumination
to people wrapped in economic problems may seem too great to solve.
...And
on the other hand, if the hero, instead of submitting to all of the
initiatory tests, has, like Prometheus, simply darted to his goal
(by violence, quick device, or luck) and plucked the boon for the
world that he intended, then the powers that he has unbalanced may
react so sharply that he will be blasted from within and without -
crucified, like Prometheus, on the rock of his own violated unconscious.
Or if
the hero, in the third place, makes his safe and willing return, he
may meet with such a blank misunderstanding and disregard from those
whom he has come to help that his career will collapse.
The composite
hero of the monomyth is a personage of exceptional gifts. Frequently
he is honored by his society, frequently [he is] unrecognized or disdained.
He and/or the world in which he finds himself suffers from a symbolical
deficiency. In fairy tales this may be as slight as the lack of a
certain golden ring, whereas in apocalyptic vision the physical and
spiritual life of the whole earth can be represented as fallen, or
on the point of falling, into ruin.
Typically,
the hero of the fairy tale achieves a domestic, microcosmic triumph,
and the hero of myth a world-historical, macrocosmic triumph. Whereas
the former - the youngest despised child who becomes the master of
extraordinary powers - prevails over his personal oppressors, the
latter brings back from his adventure the means for the regeneration
of his society as a whole.
The cosmogonic
cycle is presented with astonishing consistency in the sacred writings
of all the continents, and gives to the adventure of the hero a new
and interesting turn; for now it appears that the perilous journey
was a labor not of attainment but of reattainment, not discovery but
rediscovery. The godly powers sought and dangerously won are revealed
to have been within the heart of the hero all the time. [Laura's
note: The Ruby Slippers!]
He is
"the king's son" who has come to know who he is and therewith
has entered into the exercise of his proper power - "God's son,"
who has learned to know how much that title means. From this point
of view the hero is symbolical of that divine creative and redemptive
image which is hidden within us all, only waiting to be known and
rendered into life.
...The
effect of the successful adventure of the hero is the unlocking and
release again of the flow of life into the body of the world. ...The
torrent pours from an invisible source, the point of entry being the
center of the symbolic circle of the universe, the Immovable Spot
of the Buddha legend, around which the world may be said to revolve.
Beneath this spot is the earth-supporting head of the cosmic serpent,
the dragon, symbolical of the waters of the abyss, which are the divine
life-creative energy and substance of the demiurge...
The tree
of life, i.e., the universe itself, grows from this point. It is rooted
in the supporting darkness; the golden sun bird perches on its peak;
a spring, the inexhaustible well, bubbles at its foot. [The tree of
life is also] the figure of the cosmic man or woman ...For the hero
as the incarnation of God is himself the navel of the world, the umbilical
point through which the energies of eternity break into time.
...Wherever
a hero has been born, has wrought, or has passed back into the void,
the place is marked and sanctified. A temple is erected there to signify
and inspire the miracle of perfect centeredness; for this is the place
of the breakthrough into abundance. Someone at this point discovered
eternity.
...[A]
temple can be established anywhere. Because, finally, the All is everywhere,
and anywhere may become the seat of power. ...The World Navel, then,
is ubiquitous. And since it is the source of all existence, it yields
the world's plenitude of both good and evil. Ugliness and beauty,
sin and virtue, pleasure and pain, are equally its production. "To
God all things are fair and good and right," declares Heraclitus;
"but men hold some things wrong and some right." [Campbell,
1949]
Well, all
of that is fine and good. But what does it really mean in practical
terms? It is my objective here to make it comprehensible for all of
those who are here to perform the heroic gesture. It is only in this
way that the work of the hero can be done, for he is many.
The way
it seems to happen, (and the reader will surely want to ponder Joseph
Campbell's insightful analysis for connections and examples of their
own quest), is that something that seems to be an ordinary chance
encounter reveals another world archetypal forces.
If I had
to pick a single event that hinted that a door was about to open, it
would be the night I hypnotized Pam with the intention of proving the
alien abduction scenario was merely repressed childhood trauma, and
realizing a few days later that something remarkable had happened. But,
in a much broader sense, the strange events had been happening since
I was born. Perhaps it could even be said that the "quest"
proper began when I began actively seeking answers in a systematic way,
resulting in the production of the The Secret History of The World. From that point on, the synchronous events in my
life multiplied until I was no longer able to even talk about them in
an ordinary way for fear of being thought completely bonkers!
Of course,
according to Freud and Jung, such ordinary chance encounters are not
ordinary at all. Freud saw them as the result of suppressed desires
and conflicts, ripples on the surface of life produced by some deep
spring from which reality wells up. Jung coined the term "synchronicity"
to describe what physicists prefer to call the "acausal connecting
principle." The nature of synchronicity is that is has meaning,
and most especially it is evidence of a profound activation of energy
deep within the psyche. It is as if the formation of patterns within
the unconscious mind are accompanied by physical patterns in the outer
world. Nevertheless, in some cases, such a chance event can open the
door to destiny. Or, it can be "shoved under the rug" and
forgotten.
The next
event is what Campbell calls the "herald." It is a "crisis"
of something completely supernatural and manifests powers that are not
"ordinary" to the "real world." For me, this was
the actual seeing of the Flying Black Boomerang in the sky over my house.
Such an event lifts the curtain on a particular drama which, when complete,
amounts to dying and rebirth. It is something that is beyond the familiar
categories of one's life; it is outside the concepts, ideals and emotional
patterns by which one has ordered one's existence; it's occurrence causes
everything else to no longer "fit." But then, again, the first
event of the Flying Black Boomerangs that came in "synchrony"
with the encounter with Pam were part of this crisis. They were 4 months
apart in time, and the entire period was a crisis for me. Facing the
possible fact that there WAS another reality controlling or interacting
with our own was a world shattering event for me. As I tell people in
a sort of joking way: of all the people who never wanted to know anything
about aliens and UFOs, I deserve a place at the head of the line. Some
few people really grok how deeply serious this remark is.
In many
fairy tales and myths, the herald is a frog, a dragon, a serpent or
some other manifestation of the demiurgic powers of the abyss. In stories,
this event produces anxiety, shortness of breath, painful tightening
of the chest, and other unpleasant symptoms. For me, this was certainly
the case because I was attacked by the same terrible symptoms night
after night after night at exactly the same time that I had seen the
winged object in the sky on August 16, 1993. It is thought that these
symptoms symbolize passage across a threshold, a trial akin to birth.
But, it
is the birth into our world of the reality of the serpent, the representative
of the unconscious deep, the realm from which our world manifests, in
which are found unfathomable depths of the rejected, the unadmitted,
the unrecognized, the unknown and undeveloped elements of our existence.
So it happens
that the herald, the announcer of the adventure, is dark, terrifying,
painful and seen as evil by the world. And right here is where most
people stop. They don't realize that if they can follow the herald through
the darkness, the veiled and mysterious unknown, the way would open
into the light of day. People do not realize that, in order to diminish
darkness, they must focus on it. The notion that we may find God only
by entering the pit of darkness is antithetical to our views of good
and evil, which, we imagine, must inhabit opposite poles that can never
be joined. And yet the name Lucifer is derived from lucem ferre, or
"bringer of light." When the herald calls us into the place
of nightmares, if our hearts are pure, we may discover a vision of divinity.
Mephistopheles described himself to Faust as "a living part of
that power which perpetually thinks evil and does good."
How can
this be?
Remember
Tolkien's Lord of the Rings? It was a journey made by two men, an elf,
a dwarf, a wizard and four hobbits, who made their way across a perilous
landscape in order to destroy the power of the Lord of the Rings. In
Tolkien's story, as in the real world, a war between the forces of Knowledge/Love
and Ignorance/exploitation is being waged.
Unfortunately,
many people who have these encounters with the "herald," believe
that it is the "god," and do not understand that the role
of the alien encounters is initiatory in a real sense. Those who are
taken in by them and believe the lies have already failed the first
test of the hero. They do not realize that the "alien drama"
will "disappear" from their lives once they have "adjusted"
the alignment of forces within their soul and have become consciously
aware of the precise nature of the drama.
Synchronicities
are associated with periods of transformation. It is as if this internal
restructuring produces external resonances like a burst of "mental
energy" propagating outward into the physical world. The task is,
as the Sufis say, to keep a "cool head" and to be able to
accomodate expansion of awareness into the unseen while still keeping
one's feet on the ground and maneuvering in the "real" world"
of secondary effects of causes seen at higher levels.
So it is
that for each of us who journeys through the realm of darkness and finds
his/her way home, we make the path clearer and wider for others to follow.
It's a
dirty job, but somebody's gotta do it!
So, there
I was: I had heard the summons, the herald had arrived and beckoned
me to the threshold.
Whether
in dream or myth, in these adventures there is an atmosphere of irresistible
fascination about the figure that appears suddenly as guide, marking
a new period, a new stage, in the biography. That which has to be
faced, and is somehow profoundly familiar to the unconscious - though
unknown, surprising, and even frightening to the conscious personality
- makes itself known; and what formerly was meaningful may become
strangely emptied of value. ...Thereafter, even though the hero returns
for a while to his familiar occupations, they may be found unfruitful.
A series of signs of increasing force then will become visible, until
the summons can no longer be denied. [Campbell, 1949]
How true,
how true! How I struggled to make life normal! How I struggled to "return"
to the old days! How I railed at the events surrounding me and assaulting
me at every turn!
...The
"call to adventure" signifies that destiny has summoned
the hero and transferred his spiritual center of gravity from within
the pale of his society to a zone unknown. This fateful region of
both treasure and danger may be variously represented: as a distant
land, a forest, a kingdom underground, beneath the waves, or above
the sky... but it is always a place of strangely fluid and polymorphous
beings, unimaginable torments, superhuman deeds... [Campbell, 1949]
For me,
it was the big banana of all of these - and possibly the true source
of all the legends about same: the world of 4th density inhabited by
Drachomonoid beings, insect beings, and assorted other terrifying and
fabulous creatures impossible to comprehend as "real" in the
terms of our world.
And it
was at this point that the relationship between myself and my now ex-husband
really ended. You see, it is always a choice. A person can refuse the
call. "Many are called; but few choose to answer..."
Refusal
of the summons converts the adventure into its negative. Walled in
boredom, hard work, or "culture," the subject loses the
power of significant affirmative action and becomes a victim to be
saved. His flowering world becomes a wasteland of dry stones and his
life feels meaningless - even though, like King Minos, he may through
titanic effort succeed in building an empire of renown. Whatever house
he builds, it will be a house of death: a labyrinth of cyclopean walls
to hide from him his Minotaur. All he can do is create new problems
for himself and await the gradual approach of his disintegration.
The myths
and folk tales of the whole world make clear that the refusal is essentially
a refusal to give up what one takes to be one's own interest. The
future is regarded not in terms of an unremitting series of deaths
and births, but as though one's present system of ideals, virtues,
goals and advantages were to be fixed and made secure. [Campbell,
1949]
That is
to say, in response to my experiences; in response to his own experiences
of the miraculous, my ex-husband dove into the deepest river in the
world: denial. He grabbed hold of his Baptist religion for dear life,
and began to read the Bible daily to block out thinking and seeing and
hearing of anything that didn't fit his programmed system of ideals,
virtues and so forth. And it was clear to me that the Bible and the
religions of our childhoods, had no answers for these issues. In fact,
it was clear to me that they had been "programmed" into us
as the very veils over truth past which we must penetrate in order to
move beyond and grow into the true spiritual beings we could become.
It was
impossible for him to emerge from the controls of the emotional relationships
of his childhood. His parents and their inculcated ideas and programs
stood as guardians at the door, terrifying him with the fear of some
terrible punishment if he stepped outside the bounds of his religion,
and he simply was unable to be born again. Like Lot's wife, he was turned
to stone because he could not stop from turning back even though he
had received the call to come forth from destruction.
But, again,
I did not realize it at the time.
The next
stage in the archetypal heroic adventure is the appearance of supernatural
aid. In some stories it is a crone, a protective figure, who provides
amulets against the dragon forces.
The helpful
crone and fairy godmother is a familiar feature of European fairy
lore; in Christian saints' legends the role is commonly played by
the Virgin. The Virgin by her intercession can win the mercy of the
Father. Spider Woman with her web can control the movements of the
Sun. The hero who has come under the protection of the Cosmic Mother
cannot be harmed. The thread of Ariadne brought Theseus safely through
the adventure of the labyrinth. this is the guiding power that runs
through the work of Dante in the female figures of Beatrice and the
Virgin, and appears in Goethe's Faust successively as Gretchen, Helen
of Troy, and the Virgin. ...What such a figure represents is the benign,
protecting power of destiny.
...Having
responded to the call, and continuing to follow courageously as the
consequences unfold, the hero finds all the forces of the unconscious
at his side. Mother Nature herself supports the mighty task.
...Protective
and dangerous, motherly and fatherly at the same time, this supernatural
principle of guardianship and direction unites in itself all the ambiguities
of the unconscious - thus signifying the support of our conscious
personality by that other, larger system, but also the inscrutability
of the guide that we are following, to the peril of all our rational
ends.
The hero
to whom such a helper appears is typically one who has responded to
the call. The call, in fact, was the first announcement of the approach
of this initiatory priest. But even to those who apparently have hardened
their hearts the supernatural guardian may appear; for, as we have
seen: "Well able is Allah to save." [Campbell, 1949]
Well, having
the Cassiopaeans come along precisely 11 months to the day following
the appearance of the "Herald," in the personification of
the Flying Black Boomerang, I was well on the path of the hero's adventure,
even if I had no idea at all that this was what I was doing. And it
was to be 20 months before I arrived at the "Crossing of the First
Threshold."
With
the personifications of his destiny to guide and aid him, the hero
goes forward in his adventure until he comes to the "threshold
guardian" at the entrance to the zone of magnified power. Such
custodians bound the world in the four directions - also up and down
- standing for the limits of the hero's present sphere, or life horizon.
Beyond them is darkness, the unknown, and danger...
...The
usual person is more than content, he is even proud, to remain within
the indicated bounds, and popular belief gives him every reason to
fear so much as the first step into the unexplored.
...The
folk mythologies populate with deceitful and dangerous presence every
desert place outside the normal traffic of the village. ...The regions
of the unknown are free fields for the projection of the unconscious
content. ...The Arcadian god Pan is the best known Classical example
of this dangerous presence dwelling just beyond the protected zone
of the village boundary. Sylvanus and Faunus were his Latin counterparts.
...The emotions that he instilled in human beings who by accident
adventured into his domain was "panic" fear, a sudden, groundless
fright. ...In the frantic effort to escape from his own aroused unconscious
the victim expired in a flight of dread. Yet Pan was benign to those
who ...properly approached his shrines of healing. Also wisdom, the
wisdom of Omphalos, the World Navel, was his to bestow; for the crossing
of the threshold is the first step into the sacred zone of the universal
source.
...[There
are stories] that illustrate the ambiguities of this perplexing pass
and show how, though the terrors will recede before a genuine psychological
readiness, the overbold adventurer beyond his depth may be shamelessly
undone. [Campbell, 1949]
And this
is where we find me in the early months of 1996... moving slowly and
inexorably to the threshold of the unknown; my conscious mind fighting
tooth and nail against the forces of my own self. There was the world
of practical events in which this drama manifested; and there was, apparently,
another reality from which the energies emanated. And learning to see
this other reality and to be able to respond to it with no apparent
"proof" seemed to be the big test.
As you
might expect, the events surrounding the work on the magazine, The
Aurora Journal, took on a Twilight Zone like quality. One of
the first things I wanted to do was to find a printer who would do a
nice job for me at a reasonable cost since I was paying for it out of
my own pocket. There was a print shop near the chiropractor I was still
seeing three times a week for therapy, and I decided to stop in and
find out what my options were and how much I could do myself to keep
the costs low. At the same time, I had printed up a large volume of
the Cassiopaean material and thought that it might be cheaper to have
it copied, so I hauled it in with me.
The
young lady at the counter quoted me a very reasonable price for the
copying but said that she couldn't tell me anything about doing a magazine
layout because she was just there in a clerical capacity and I would
have to come back. I left my material with an order for 3 copies, bound
in a plastic spine.
Several
days later I went back to pick up my copies. As the girl was getting
them from the back, a woman emerged from the shop area, grinning widely,
and said "I THOUGHT that was you I heard out here!" I looked
at her blankly because, frankly, I had NO idea who she was! She realized
that I didn't recognize her and she said "Pam! You remember! I
came to you for hypnosis!"
And
then I realized who she was! She was the woman I had hypnotized back
in 1993 the night the Flying Black Boomerangs were sighted over the
three county area. She had been so upset by the idea of an alien abduction
lurking in her subconscious that she never came back for any further
sessions. I had always wondered what had happened to her since, and
it was very curious to find her in this print shop since she had told
me back then that she was in real estate. It was even stranger when
you consider that I had selected this print shop over any other simply
because it was en route between my house and the chiropractor I was
seeing every other day as a result of an accident that I was certain
was a deliberate attempt on my life by "alien forces." Not
only that, I was in the print shop for the very purpose of having copies
made of material that related to the events in which Pam had been involved
at the very beginning. Further, that I was planning on inquiring about
the printing of a magazine that was an offshoot of those same events.
I
was shocked. She looked like she had aged about 20 years in the almost
three years since I had seen her! As it turned out, Pam had recently
bought the print shop as a business venture for her kids. She invited
me into the back of the shop for coffee and we brought each other up
to date on what had been happening in our lives since the "incident"
of the UFOs. That event had upset her so badly that she completely retreated
into denial and the "normal life" routine. I told her how
that event had done just the opposite for me - I had been catapulted
into a series of learning experiences that had completely shattered
my previous world, and made it seem like I was on a continual roller
coaster ride. I told her: "Honey! If you had any idea of the stuff
that has happened to me since you were at my house and opened the door
to those damned aliens, you would NOT believe it!" And we both
laughed.
So, we spent an hour or so catching up. Pam was fascinated by the story
of how the contact with the Cassiopaeans had developed the year following
her hypnosis session and wanted not only to read the material, but to
attend a session. It turned out that she was very interested in "mysteries,"
or so she claimed. It never occurred to me to wonder why she wasn't
interested in her own mystery!
I was, of course, thinking to myself how serendipitous this was for
Pam to own this print shop since it just MIGHT mean that I could get
my magazine printed at a really reasonable price.
As
we talked, Pam began to reveal things about her past that were beyond
strange. When she had come to me for hypnosis, she was working in real
estate and caring for her retired and dying husband who had been a former
government employee. That was basically all she had said at the time.
I had never asked her if her husband worked for the post office or any
other specific agency, not realizing that it MIGHT be important.
NOW
she was telling me that he was a physicist who had worked at various
government labs, including JPL on the Mars Observer, and had spent most
of his time working in an underground laboratory somewhere in Maryland
or thereabouts. She was telling me so many things that I found it difficult
to assimilate all of it. It was as though, in the years since the door
to the idea of "aliens" had been opened in her mind, all sorts
of associations had come together. It never occurred to me that this
might be "bait" to attract my interest.
On
top of her husband's work, Pam, herself, had a high security clearance
and had spent years working (or so she said) in certain office positions
that gave her access to highly sensitive information. Finally I thought
I understood why Pam may have been abducted. If her husband was a scientist
and she had a security clearance, that might explain it. I shared with
her that I had learned that families of government employees generally
seem to be abducted more than the average person. She thought this was
interesting, but still didn't think that it applied to her specifically.
I
was pretty excited by all of this. A real, potential witness to weirdness!
What a find!
We
discussed the magazine, finally, and she agreed that if I would come
into the shop and physically help assemble it, in addition to having
camera ready copy, she would be able to give me a considerable discount.
So, I left feeling like the fates were in my corner and all was going
to be right. I also thought that this was a BIG opportunity - perhaps
the one the Cassiopaeans had mentioned when they had said back in October
of the previous year:
Q: (L)
We would like to know if you have anything to give in the form of
a teaching?
A: Not ready for that yet; establish clear channel and forum first;
one step at a time.
Q: (L) What is the forum?
A: What do you think?
Q: (L) Do you mean that we need to bring more people into this work?
A: Close.
Q: (L) We need to create a forum.
A: Yes. A direction will open if you persevere.
Q: (L) So things will be brought to us and happen for us if we just
persevere?
A: Soon expect big opportunity.
Q: (L) I assume that we are not to ask what it is, we are to have
faith, is that correct?
A: Yes. Danger you may misinterpret opportunity.
Q: (L) Should we all be able to realize in congruence whether the
opportunity is good?
A: Varying degrees.
Q: (L) If there is a danger we may misinterpret the opportunity, could
you give us a couple of clues so that when it occurs we won't miss
it?
A: At least one of you will have instant recognition but others may
not. Wait and see.
My first
interpretation of this "opportunity" was the fact that RC
wanted to dump her magazine. She did claim to "recognize"
me as a connection from her past life, though I can't say that I had
similar recognition. A magazine was a "forum."
The next
interpretation I put on it was that Pam had "instantly" recognized
me, but I hadn't recognized her. And having an "inside line"
to printing, especially since we were planning a journal, was definitely
a "big opportunity" in terms of "creating a forum"
one would think.
At the
same time, I had joined Mike Lindemann's ISCNI forum on AOL and had
been invited to "chat" live, online, with his group in a sort
of "question and answer" session. I felt sure that this, also,
was part of the "forum" and might be the "big opportunity."
But, the
fact that, in none of these instances had there been "instant recognition"
by any of the group, with the others "doubting," still bugged
me. What other "big opportunity" could there be?
So, it's
funny how we "anticipate" things in ways that never quite
"fit," and yet how desperate we are to make them true.
I brought
the subject up with the Cassiopaeans:
Q: (L)
We have a number of questions we want to cover tonight. The first
thing is, in the early stages of this channeling process we talked
about what it was we were supposed to be doing. We were told that
the first thing we needed to do was "establish a clear channel." Obviously,
it has taken about a year to do that. The next thing that was identified
that we must do was to establish a "forum." What is this forum supposed
to be in?
A: These are all questions to which you must discover the answers
by learning, therefore, no further discussion is now beneficial.
Q: (L) Now the next thing was that a direction would open and that
there was something amazing and wonderful just around the corner that
I would recognize instantly and which would help me to know what to
do. Has this already occurred and did I miss something?
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) I was recently invited to give a talk to the ISCNI, that is,
the Institute for the Study of Contact with Non- human Intelligence
which is headed by a guy named Mike Lindemann. I am rather curious
as to the reaction from some of these people.
A: Lindemann and the others would best serve the "cause" if they loosen
any rigidities that they may have found themselves "grooving into,"
as this is an area that definitely does not lend itself to manifestations
of rigidity in any way, shape, or form, whatsoever!!!
Q: (L) I think they are getting a little rigid because they feel they
are under pressure from the scientific community to prove something.
But, observable elements of the phenomena of aliens have progressed
to such a stage, that trying to prove anything scientifically becomes
moot. We don't have time for double-blind experiments. We don't have
time to wait for FDA approval!
A: Persist and express the same thoughts you did here! Help Lindemann
and others to see that they are dealing with a phenomenon that is
better studied in a way that stresses an open learning forum, not
a "scientific" study methodology. In all its forms, not just the "physical"
agenda that is primarily sought by some and in fact, it is through
the ethereal plane and methodologies that the clues and some of the
answers lie for physical as well as ethereal factors. Tell Michael
this verbatim: "You once had a more open mind, Michael, what happened?"
Some of his most frustrating recent events in his life relate directly
to this!! Trust your insights, they are assisting learning matrix.
So, I didn't
get any answers to my assumptions about the "big opportunity"
that was supposed to happen "soon" dating from the time of
October of 1994. I had begun to wonder just what the Cassiopaeans meant
by "soon?" For me, "soon" was a few weeks. Here,
we had gone over a year with no real or definite "big opportunity"
for establishing a "forum." Further, there had been no "instant
recognition" of anything by any of us.
As we have
already discussed in these pages, the "serendipitous" meeting
with Pam, at just the time I "needed" it, was also intertwined
with the very strange kidnapping case of the young girl who so strongly
resembled the child who had been murdered just prior to the time I met
Pam the first time. I will not complicate the particular thread we are
following now with that additional narrative, as I want to keep with
the idea of trying to converge into a chronological sequence of sessions.
But, that session was very much related to the overall situation at
that moment, particularly relating to Pam, so I am going to include
it here again:
Q:
(L) Okay, Pam will be here on Saturday, so we will leave a lot of
my questions for then. I don't quite know how to ask this. It has
become increasingly obvious to me that there is some sort of connection
where JO [an unsolved murder of a local girl] was concerned, some
synchronous connections between that murder and my so-called "awakening,"
if you want to call it that. And I also noticed a connection between
the life pattern, or change in life pattern, of Ted Bundy and certain
UFO sightings, and cattle mutilations that were in his area of the
country. Now, we have another girl who has come up missing at the
very same time - in fact, the very day - that Pam and I were discussing
the JO case. This new case has a lot of things that seem to be common
to that old case, the most striking being the amazing resemblance
of the two girls to each other. Did my involvement with the JO case
[I was asked by law enforcement official to try to come up with
some clues or hints through astrology and psychic impressions] have
anything to do with opening the door of my mind to other phenomena,
particularly UFOs and aliens?
A: Possible.
Q: (L) You can't give me a clear answer on that?
A: Learn!
Q: (L) Okay. I had dreams about it. The work that I did on the case
astrologically, the dreams I had about it, as well as certain impressions
I received, convinced me that a particular individual was the killer.
Was that an opening of my instinctual awareness in some way?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Was there some connection between JO's murder and "alien"
activity?
A: There is always this connection in one way or another, at
one plane convergence or another.
This
is actually a pretty startling remark when you think about it. Remember,
of course, that the conventional definition of "alien" that
we had grown to understand is NOT 3rd density visitors from outer space,
but hyper dimensional beings who are part of the control system of our
world.
Q: (L) Was the murder of JO a "mini-plane convergence?"
A: What did we just say?
Q: (L) It seemed to me that was what you said, and I was trying
to clarify it. Is that, in fact, a plane convergence can be defined
as where one person's plane of reality converges with another person's
plane of reality, and one or the other gets annihilated?
A: 4th, 5th and 3rd density is involved.
Q: (L) Is this true with all murders?
A: Discover and yes.
This
sort of gives a different perspective to the subject of crime, most
particularly crimes of violence. I was beginning to formulate the idea
that each and every human being is a part of one or another of the cosmic
archetypes and that their lives, their actions, their "scripts"
could be identified with sufficient examination of their experiences.
Q: (L) Was my interaction into that reality a sort of entering into
a point of plane convergence?
A: Flirting with the edges.
Q: (L) So, when a person is working on a murder investigation, or
thinking about it, or applying thoughts, talents, instincts or whatever
to the solving of this kind of puzzle, they are interacting with
a plane convergence?
A: This represents one manifestation of the always present desire
to return "home" to 5th density.
Q: (L) Okay. Well. Now, I want to get to the 64,000 dollar question.
In the JO case, was my conclusion correct?
I
was pretty obsessed with knowing the answer to this one, or at the very
least having the answer I had come up with confirmed.
A: "Correctness" takes many forms and provides a window to many
conventions.
Q: (F) What does that mean? (L) I don't know.
A: Learn.
Q: (L) Was the man who killed JO known to her?
A: We recall advising a cautious approach, in order to insure that
your lessons are learned not only accurately, but painlessly as
well.
If I
was correct, it was a very dangerous thing to know!
Q:
(L) Could you suggest, just to get me on track here, a form of question
that would be a "cautious" question? Then I can frame subsequent
questions on that model.
I
really wanted that "confirmation!" I was really stretching
to find a way to get the Cassiopaeans to give me a "final answer."
A:
The issue here is not how to "frame" a question in such a way as
to lure us into answering in the way you desire, but for you to
learn most effectively. Do not have prejudice that there is only
one thing to be learned from each response. "You never know what
there is to be learned when you inquire with innocence and freedom
from supposition."
Since
Frank and I were working alone, there was no one present to take notes.
I had to stop and play the tape back to get the words from the above
response which had been delivered to rapidly to follow mentally. And,
when I did, there was that blasted static that would roar on and drown
out the important words, but would be completely absent in other portions.
Q:
(L) I just played the tape back and it is all muddy. Could you tell
us why we are having this problem with the tape?
A: Telekinetic wave transfer.
Q: (L) What is this telekinetic wave transferring?
A: Evolving energy.
Q: (L) Given off by us?
A: Both to and from.
Q: (L) From us to you?
A: You and others, not us.
Q: (L) Who are these others?
A: 4th density eavesdroppers, Pam's involvement should "heat
things up."
Q: (L) Is Pam's involvement going to be beneficial to this work?
A: Yes, but also expect anomalies.
And one
has to remember that "beneficial" does not necessarily mean
that I was going to LIKE it! But, I was pretty focused on this murder
thing. Sometimes I really have a one track mind!
Q:
(L) That is interesting. Are you going to tell me who killed JO?
I am willing to give up my conclusion if necessary.
A: Learn. Review our previous response.
Well,
the issue of Ted Bundy and the UFO sightings that occurred in the area
of the country where he lived at the time he was purportedly beginning
his murderous career had recently attracted my attention. I had thought
it was strange that murder had been synchronously connected to UFOs
in our own experience. I thought this might be a path to follow so that
I could get the answer I was after.
Q:
(L) Okay. Learn. Was there something about Ted Bundy, and the fact
that his life seemed to disintegrate at the same time a lot of UFOs
were sighted?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Ted Bundy abducted?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was Ted Bundy programmed to do what he did?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What was the purpose behind that programming?
A: We must withhold answer for the present.
Clearly
this is an issue that went right over my head at the time.
Q:
(L) Okay. Bundy described his murdering urges as a "pressure building
inside" him that he couldn't overcome, and it seemed to cause him
to stop being "human," as we think of it. That seems to me to be
an example of an implant being able to overcome a person's social
behavior, or controls over anti-social tendencies. Is this also
what happened to the person who killed JO?
A: Maybe.
Q: (L) Is there a connection between the newly missing girl, CB,
and JO?
A: You are doing well in your probing of the knowledge within on
this issue, we suggest continuance, after all, learning is fun!
Q: (L) So, it seems to me that there was a connection between the
[physical] appearance of CB and JO. Could it be that the individual
who killed one or both of them (we didn't know if the second girl
was dead or not) was programmed to respond to this particular type
of facial features? Could that be part of the programming?
A: End subject.
Q: (L) What do you mean?
A: We have helped you all that is necessary for now on this matter.
It is beneficial for you to continue on your own for growth.
Clearly
there WAS an issue here and I was flirting dangerously close to it.
Q:
(L) Can I ask just one or two more LITTLE questions in a different
direction? I mean, this is like walking away and leaving me in the
dark!
A: No it is not!
Q: (L) I would like to be able to solve this because the families
are in pain and have asked for help.
A: Why don't you trust your incredible abilities? If we answer
for you now, you will be helpless when it becomes necessary for
you to perform this function on a regular basis, as it will be!!!!
Q: (L) Well, frankly, I don't want to be involved in any more murder
investigations. It is too upsetting. Am I supposed to DO this sort
of thing regularly???
A: Not same arena.
Q: (L) Well, then how do you mean "perform this function?"
A: No, seeing the unseen.
Q: (L) Okay, shift gears. There are some issues with my son and
the school. He wanted to attend regular school because he was of
the opinion that he needed a break from home schooling. This has
led to a number of incidents involving what can only be called "gangs"
in the school. I am completely shocked by what goes on there over
which the school seems to have absolutely no control. I mean, they
have to keep policemen on campus because of the threat of guns and
knives, and these kids today are actually dangerous! I think my
son is miserable and even frightened in this violent environment,
but he does not want to "give up" or be viewed as a "quitter," or
a baby. He is torn between his misery and disgust with the system,
and his desire for peace. I would like to know why those kids attacked
him the other day?
A: Attack.
Q: (L) You mean stimulated through 4th density?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is there anything I can do to help protect him?
A: What do you think?
Q: (L) Well. I don't know what to think.
A: Don't avoid the issue, it is of paramount importance!
Q: (L) Yes, I think I ought to take Jay out of school. There is
just too much attack going on from all directions at the present
time, and that is ONE portal of attack that I can close off.
A: Instincts preserve 3rd density experience.
Q: (L) Are you suggesting that there is some threat to his existence
in 3rd density if I DON'T do something right away?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Is this threat from outside sources?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So I need to pull him out of school NOW.
A: Follow instincts.
Q: (L) That's clear enough for me. I have the feeling Jay is here
for a purpose and that is why he has so much difficulty interacting
with persons who are not as concerned about things as he is.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Now, I want to ask about the Sheldon Nidle channeling?
A: Suggest you not waste energy on this.
Q: (L) There are a lot of people who are convinced by Sheldon Nidle
that there is going to be a photon belt and a mass landing of UFOs
in the fall of this year. Is this, in fact, going to occur?
A: People are very convinced by Bo and Peep.
The following
week, Pam attended her first session. Since the Cassiopaeans had said
that her presence should "heat things up a bit" and that
her involvement would be "beneficial" to our work, I had
the idea that she might be good for the reception. Since she had been
present when the Black Boomerangs appeared, I reasoned she must have
some special "psychic" tuning of her own. I was also extremely
curious to see if the Cassiopaeans would finally answer the question
about the appearance of these craft on that night in more detail.
But, the sessions never go the way we think they will go; they take
on a dynamic and life of their own just like any conversation that
begins with weather and ends with the price of tea in China. The only
difference was, we were having conversations with the Cassiopaeans,
so there was some sensation of oceans of information lying in wait
to be accessed if we could only formulate or stumble on the right
question.
Q: (L)
We have Pam with us tonight...
A: Hello Pam.
Q: (L) Now, with all of us here, we would like to ask why the black,
flying boomerangs showed up on the night Pam first came for hypnosis?
A: Examine issue carefully.
Q: (L) The first thing we thought about it was that this was a, if
not necessarily rare, at least rarely observed type of craft, and
the event itself was rare... is this correct?
A: It is rare.
Q: (L) Since the hypnosis session was not "advertised" in
any way, and no mention of "aliens" or anything like that
was ever made, it seems that it might have happened in response to
this hypnosis session by knowledge obtained in ways with which we
are not familiar. And, if that is the case, then it must mean that
there was something or someone of interest at that hypnosis session.
I have thought about it two ways: either the interest was in myself,
and what I might uncover about aliens; or the interest was in Pam
for some other reason - perhaps that she should NOT uncover anything
about her own experiences. Which person were the UFO's particularly
interested in?
A: It was not a person, but information that is hidden in the subconscious
memory of Pam.
Q: (L) Were they wanting to get this information?
A: No. To monitor what would be revealed.
Q: (L) Does this mean that Pam has information programmed into her
before birth that she needs to access as you said I did?
A: No. Abductions.
Q: (L) They wanted to see if anything would be revealed about their
abductions of her?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Okay, who abducted her?
A: Grays. 4 times. Snow scene was only 3rd density abduction. Abduction
which occurred there was strictly physical. The others were 4th density.
3rd density abduction only occurs rarely, and is of great import.
Q: (P) Was my son abducted?
A: Frozen.
Q: (L) Why did they want Pam so bad that they would take her physically?
A: Do you have any ideas?
Q: (L) Maybe Pam has knowledge that she could access to work against
these beings?
A: But real reason is more fundamental. Exposure.
Q: (L) Oh, they fear that she will act in some way to expose them...
A: Government proximities!
Q: (L) Oh! Well, Pam has pointed out that just because she was married
to a scientist who worked at JPL doesn't mean she knew anything. Does
she know something that she doesn't know she knows?
A: [It's] not what she knew. [It's] because of [her] proximity to
consortium activity. [She was] implanted for possible future activation.
Q: (P) Was this related to what was going on under the mountain? (L)
What mountain? (P) Just ask.
A: Not locator, personnel are factored.
Q: (L) Okay, it is not where she was so much as who she was in contact
with?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) Was it her husband?
A: Perhaps.
Q: (L) Maybe that is why there is a higher rate of abduction among
family members of government employees, so that they can be activated
or controlled for some reason if needed. (P) But my husband wasn't
really working on anything secret.
A: He had access to sensitive facilities.
Q: (L) So, Pam had an implant put in. An actual, physical implant.
Where is it?
A: Behind sinus cavity.
Q: (L) What is this implant designed to do?
A: Activate behavioral control reflex and thought pattern generation
and alteration.
Now,
just stop and think about this remark. Implants that can "activate
behavioral control" reflexes and that can "generate" thought
patterns or alter thought patterns are pretty scary concepts! This suggests
that, without conscious attention to our "patterns of thought and
behavior," we may be controlled in ways we have always thought were
just our "personality."
Q: (P)
Is that why I can't remember anything?
A: Some.
Q: (P) No, but I do have this memory problem in a big way. (L) So,
can I say that this UFO appeared over my house on the night Pam was
under hypnosis, to...
A: To monitor.
Q: (L) If Pam had revealed the details of her abduction, would there
have been any repercussions?
A: Not in this case.
Q: (L) So, if Pam had gone to anyone for hypnosis, these craft would
have appeared?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) You have already told us that this is extremely rare.
A: 3rd density abductions [are rare].
Q: (P) Does this have anything to do with Camp David?
A: Not the issue, it's personnel! [Pam interacted with] many others!
Q: (L) Well, there seems to be an issue here that we need to get to.
(P) Do the planes have anything to do with it?
A: It is up to Pam, the extent she wishes to retrieve and divulge,
the many unusual experiences that were met, by Pam, with unusual indifference.
And
here we have more of a clue about control of behavior and thought patterns.
I had no idea at the time of the significance of this remark.
Q: (P)
The first thing unusual was the geographic location of our house.
Directly West of us was the mountain that housed all the communications
to be used in the event of nuclear war. We were 13 miles North of
Camp David. And, while we lived there, many, many things took place
at Camp David that were of global significance. And, we built a barn
in 1982 - and had bought the house in 1976 - and never, in all the
years that I lived there, did I ever notice these planes until we
built the barn. If I had a stick in my hand, I could have touched
them, that's how low they flew. Right over my barn! The same days
every week; and there was always two of them; and they never had a
single marking on them; and, they were propeller planes. And I wondered:
what in the hell is this country doing flying planes, unmarked, propeller
driven, and so low, over this area? This continued until we moved
from that house. So, these planes came twice a week from 1982 until
1989. Well, after the first couple of times, I sort of just said:
"Well, there are the planes." So, what else is new?
A: Indifference.
Q: (P) I thought the planes had something to do with the mountain.
Did they?
A: Maybe.
Q: (P) We knew they were flying under radar. Now, that I am thinking
about this, nobody else ever talked about these planes. It was like
we were the only people that ever saw them, or only people who were
at our house saw them too. My best friend who lived right up the road
never saw them. I asked her: "Did you see the planes?" and she said
"What planes?" I mean, she was seven acres away and nothing in between!
A: Unusual experiences mount!
Q: (P) My husband also noticed these things and he would always say
- he was less indifferent than I was - he would say: "what in the
hell are those planes, and what are they doing?" (L) Why was Pam so
indifferent? (P) Well, it didn't affect MY life, except that I was
damn mad that it upset my horses. But then, the horses got used to
them too, and they became indifferent! [laughter] Well, they came
so often, twice a week - "it's Wednesday, the planes will be here!"
A: More... continue probing...
It
is clear, in retrospect, that the Cassiopaeans wanted Pam to talk so that
I would "get a clue" here. But I was, sad to say, blissfully
unaware!
Q: (P)
The planes came from East to West, and in the West was the mountain...
A: Catoctin.
Q: (P) [Amazed] That is the name of the mountain! (L) What is it?
[I had never heard this word before.] (P) The tunnel where all these
facilities were... under Catoctin Mountain. Camp David is near, too.
A: And MUCH ELSE! Mount Weather, Virginia. And why did you live in
area... helicopters? What brought you to Maryland?
WHY
did they say: "helicopters? What brought you to Maryland?" It
went right over my head...
Q: (L)
What does Mount Weather mean? (P) The underground tunnel - everybody
in town called it The Tunnel - but there was nothing around there
to ever give anybody the slightest clue as to what it was. In fact,
I lived there for quite a long time before I knew it existed. And,
on top of the mountain there was a weather station... My husband was
doing electron microscopy - cancer research.
A: REALLY?
Q: (P) It was a photographic lab.
A: So what? Helicopters, Pat? We are asking you!
And
they brought up the helicopters again...
Q: (P)
Well, the helicopters in Fredrick went over our house every time the
president was at Camp David. But, that was our house in Walkersville
not in Emmetsburg. When we first moved to Maryland. Sometimes the
helicopters were unmarked...
A: You see, Pam is resistant due to experiences, things don't "phase"
her easily, programming, etc.
Q: (L) So, all of these things happening around her, the planes, the
mountain, the helicopters... (P) But the helicopters, I knew it was
the President either going to or coming from Camp David.
A: Resistant, not resisting.
Q: (L) Is the term "resistant" a clue?
A: All is a clue here!
So,
there was something important about the "helicopters" and it
was connected to "what brought" Pam to Maryland. But none of
us were picking up on this. Pam kept diverging from the subject, and the
Cassiopaeans indicated that she was "resistant due to experiences."
Then, they made the curious remark that "things don't 'phase' her
easily" and that this was related to programming. Well, nobody can
say that the Cassiopaeans weren't doing everything they could to make
a point! I just wasn't paying attention.
Q: (P)
Isn't that just my personality, that if it doesn't affect me I don't
bother with it?
A: Yes. Shoot somebody in front of P, and she says: "Oh well, that's
life" so, to discover spectacular things, one must be patient
and probe carefully, no hasty assumptions, please!! There is much
to be retrieved, revealed, studied. Let Pam digest it, and report
back later.
This
extremely odd remark, "shoot somebody in front of Pam and she says:
'Oh well, that's life,' was certainly the last desperate effort to get
me to pay attention; but I was just too convinced that Pam and her print
shop were the answers to my prayers that I didn't want to hear it.
Q: (L)
At the time there were all those sightings around here on the night
we did the hypnosis session with Pam, why did so many other people
see them?
A: Window was "blasted."
Q: (L) Okay, we have the magazine ready to go out and the articles
are somewhat controversial. Can we have an indication as to whether
there will be a positive response to this issue or not? I don't want
to turn people off by being too radical.
A: Wait and see.
Q: (L) Pam is having some serious problems at the present time, can
you help her with these? A: Networking works!!!
Q: (P) Is there a light at the end of the tunnel?
A: Networking works!!!!!
Q: (P) I would like to know about the apparitions of the Virgin Mary
at Conyers, GA, as well as this book "Mary's Message to the
World" and all the other messages about the End Times that
are coming out all over?
A: The forces at work here are far too clever to be accurately anticipated
so easily. You never know what twists and turns will follow, and they
are aware of prophetic and philosophical patternings and usually shift
course to fool and discourage those who believe in fixed futures.
And that
was that. In retrospect, it is easy to see that the Cassiopaeans were
trying to get me to see something about Pam in their exchange with her,
but I was too excited about getting the magazine printed to care about
anything else. They had said "network," and I was networking
like crazy! Or so I thought.
Pam decided
that she wanted to become a regular member of the group. We thought
that her energy was pretty compatible, and she was a lot of fun to be
around with her dry and witty comments, so we agreed. The most curious
thing happened, however. This session that Pam attended was made almost
unintelligible due to static on the tape. The only other time this had
happened was just a few days previously, after meeting with Pam, though
she was not present. After a couple of earlier experiences with different
glitches with our recording equipment, we had certain procedures we
followed prior to the session to make sure that everything was in order.
We had performed all the checks, and everything was working. But still,
the static was there, most often when Pam was speaking. In fact, the
next session with Pam, we used two tape recorders and both
tapes were nearly impossible to decipher. In the six years of working
with the Cassiopaeans, this only happened during the time we were interacting
with Pam. Fortunately, we take a fairly good set of notes even while
recording, so I was able to reconstruct the sessions from the notes.
At this
point, I need to go in a slightly different direction in order to explain
the lead-off question at the beginning of the next chronological session.
I was presented
with copies of the now infamous "KRLL" papers in January of
1995, by the Reiki master the Cassiopaeans had directed me to as described
in a previous chapter. (The right one, that is!) They had been given
to her, and she passed them on to me, knowing of my interest in UFOs.
I was perfectly amazed to discover threads of the same material that
the Cassiopaeans were delivering woven throughout this purported "communication"
from an "EBE" (Extraterrestrial Biological Entity).
We had
heard about the KRLL papers from some people at MUFON, and we asked
the Cassiopaeans about them even before we had read them. This extract
will give the reader some idea of the great amount of discussion and
commentary that went on amongst the group DURING the sessions. Sometimes
it was a perfect melee of comments and differing opinions!
January
14, 1995
Q: (L)
Now, I want to ask about these KRLL documents that Sally has told
me about and is sending to me in the mail. Tell us what is the background
and validity of the KRLL papers. Terry knows more about them than
I do. Supposedly it is some kind of exposition written by an alien
being revealing the government conspiracy. Were the KRLL papers valid?
(T) KRLL was supposedly a prisoner of the United States. (L) Was there
really such a being as KRLL?
A: Semi.
Q: (T) Is there any validity to the KRLL papers?
A: Semi.
Q: (T) Was it dictated by this alien being?
A: Maybe.
Q: (T) Was it put together by a human?
A: Semi.
Q: (T) Is this in the same area of UFO lore as the Cooper and Lear
and Lazar and Bennewitz stuff?
A: We have told you many times... Laura, pay attention... Listen!
Q: (L) Well, you say "semi." Semi means half-way. Is it
half true or half-way true?
A: Whoa! Calm down! Patience! We are trying to tell you something
important, and you keep asking questions. We have told you many times
to communicate with each other and network and share ideas, because
that is how you LEARN and PROGRESS! But, you are beginning to rely
on us for all your answers, and you do not LEARN that way!!!!!!! Now,
try this, you will be thunderstruck with the results: Each of you
has stored within you unlimited amounts of factual and "Earthshaking"
information. This information was put into your consciousness in order
for you to retrieve it in order for you to learn. Now just start by
holding a discussion about the last series of questions you were trying
to ask us, and "let it flow."
Q: (Laura) Well, if John Lear and William Cooper are saying basically
the same thing the KRLL document is saying, where did they get their
information?
(Terry) One of the rumors going on was that Moore or Lear or Bennewitz,
one of these, was the one that had written the KRLL papers. There
was some talk that KRLL may have been an acronym used by the government
to identify this being who gave the information which is the basis
of this document.
(Laura) To your knowledge, would Lear or Cooper ever have been in
a position, or did they ever at any time claim to have been in a position,
to observe any of this activity written up in this document themselves?
(Terry) I don't believe that either of them have ever claimed to have
been in a position to have physically observed any of this or to have
been in the underground bases. They were working with information
they claimed to have gotten from other sources.
(Laura) And what do they claim their other sources are? Unnamed?
(Terry) A lot of them are unnamed. Moore and Cooper claim they have
inside government sources. I believe Cooper is the one who claims
that he at one time worked for the military.
(Laura) Is he the one who claims that he was the intelligence analyst
for the Admiral of the Pacific Fleet or something like that?
(Terry) Yes. There are several versions of the Cooper papers as he
modifies and updates them. He didn't change anything really, he just
cleaned them up, re-edited them and added to them.
(Laura) Okay, if this is the case, it would seem to me that a person
would have a much better chance of having something believed if they
presented it as coming from a human source who either observed or
saw it. Why would they say that this is an alien dictating this when
that is so far and away more unbelievable? It seems to me that if
they were making it up they would have far better chance if they said
a human extracted this information from documents rather than that
it is what the alien said. That would almost tend, in a backward sort
of way, to make you think that maybe this KRLL dude, maybe it was
true. But, the only thing about that is, if it was an alien, especially
if it was an STS alien, how much of it was true? That's the
question.
(Terry) Well, KRLL was supposed to be one of the standard Grays.
(Laura) Well, then, maybe we can't rely on anything he says. We can
rely on the fact that it is possible that it was an alien who gave
this information, but if it was one of the standard Grays, then we
have been informed as to who and what they are and we have to look
at the information itself as being unreliable, not necessarily the
human who revealed the scenario.
(Frank) Well, it is not necessarily unreliable even if it is an STS
source.
(Laura) Yes, but as STS they would undoubtedly only give information
that would tend to service their position.
(Frank) That would seem to be the case if you look at it from the
obvious angle. But, that is not necessarily true. Just because it
is an STS alien, and, in fact, a cybergenetic being, that does not
mean that the information is necessarily inaccurate for several reasons.
For those of us who have reached a certain level of understanding,
our first assumption would be that it is inaccurate, so it could be
a reverse psychology ploy. Give accurate information, get those who
are at a higher level of understanding to think it's inaccurate, when
in actuality it is accurate.
(Laura) Well, do you know what it said? From what Sally tells me,
it says, basically, what we have been getting from the Cassiopaeans.
(Frank) Well, then it is accurate.
(Laura) We can't make that assumption!
(Terry) If this is a standard cybergenetic Gray, the question is how
much biological is he? Is he biological enough to pass a dissection?
(Laura) Sure, I think. There are purported reports of autopsies of
these guys, and they just can't figure out how they feed because they
are reported to have dead-end alimentary canals. [See: Whitley Streiber's
Majestic.]
(Frank) They are cybergenetic, but they look and function exactly
like a biological being. If you go inside of them you will find blood
and fibers and tissue and microscopic evidence...
(Laura) The microscopic exams, from what I have heard, reveal that
they're more in the line of a plant...
(Terry) Yes.
(Frank) Which, of course, would indicate that they have been grown!
(Laura) Yes. Imagine chromosomal linking of human genetic information
with that of the plant kingdom!
(Terry) You could literally grow hundreds of them easily.
(Laura) And plant them like seeds... and, apparently that is what
they have done. People have come back who have been taken to these
ships and have seen walls of containers growing these things. Like
a room in a hot house.
(Frank) Well, there you go. We have gotten information which indicates
that the Grays have access to both dimensions because they are probes
of the Lizzies. And this gives us a further clue as to what a strange
place 4th level is if such "probes" can be grown like plants! And,
what level must fully souled 4th density beings be when we are fooled
into believing their cybergenetic constructions are the "real thing!"
(Terry) Does this mean that the abilities of the Lizzies, since they
have to create "probes" to enter our density, would not be any more
advanced than, say, your everyday spirit? Without the Grays, would
they be able to interact with us at all?
(Frank) Yes.
(Laura) Yes, they are, they have, they will and they do from all reports
I have studied.
(Frank) But, there are several problems. One is their appearance is
very, very alarming...
(Jan) They would garner a lot of attention if they walked down the
street.
(Terry) It depends on how they dress themselves! [Laughter]
(Laura) They can shape-shift.
(Frank) They can shape-shift, but only for a limited period of time.
(Laura) Because it takes 3rd density energy to do that.
(Frank) That brings up something, when we were talking to Susy on
the phone the other night, Susy and Barry mentioned the Men In Black.
The Cassiopaeans said that the Men In Black were "Lizard beings."
In many reports of Men In Black, they have been described as very
strange in numerous ways. Their voices have been described as sounding
like they come from an echo chamber, and...
(Terry) Well, when we asked about the Men in Black in one of the sessions,
what did the Cassiopaeans say? That they are "Projections."
(Jan) Exactly, maybe that is a clue, maybe that is how they come into
our reality: as projections from 4th into 3rd.
(Frank) But, there is one case that always sticks in my mind, and
it took place relatively recently, on April 28, 1978, a guy in Maine
who had been doing UFO research, was accosted by a single Man in Black.
He said the guy was very strange in many ways. He had pink... his
face looked like it was covered with make-up, and, in fact, when he
touched himself at one point and his face started to smear as if it
was completely covered. And then, he suddenly got up and said: "Have
to go now... run-n-n-ing out of e- ner-gy." Then he walked out of
the house and staggered down the drive. They guy said that at that
point he became somewhat disoriented as he watched the Man in Black
start to stagger....
(Laura) He was not the Energizer Bunny! [laughter]
(Frank) And then the man saw a light that he at first thought was
the headlight of a car, but the Man in Black walked into the light
and was gone.
(Jan) Projections! That's how they move from 4th to 3rd!
(Laura) They said they project as a "triage." Remember. It was something
like travel in space/time.
(Terry) Well, we have gotten off the discussion of KRLL, but we have
certainly been led into some pretty amazing conclusions about 4th
level.
(Frank) All of what we have worked with over the years - the ideas
of it being a nuts and bolts phenomenon, which I originally thought
too - and it's clear if one has been following the whole phenomenon
closely, it has evolved, actually, from a nuts-and-bolts perspective
- , and I am not knocking nuts-and-bolts - but those who are really
looking with an open mind are seeing that this is far more.
(L) Alright, here it is guys... [had been looking for references to
Men In Black] ...
Q:Who
or what are the Men in Black?
A: Lizard Projections.
(Terry)
We got on to that because we were asking about the projection of the
guy in the Camaro that showed up in my driveway.
Q:
Does this mean that the Lizards are just projecting an image of
a being?
A: Yes.
Q: The MIBs are not real in our physical terms?
A: Partly correct. You do not understand technology but we will
describe it if you like. First we must explain further "time travel"
because the two concepts are closely related. The first step is
to artificially induce an electro-magnetic field. This opens the
door between dimensions of reality. Next, thoughts must be channeled
by participant in order to access reality bonding channel. They
must then focus the energy to the proper dimensional bridge, the
electrons must be arranged in correct frequency wave, and then the
triage must be sent through realm curtain in order to balance perceptions
at all density levels. Triage is as follows: 1. Matter; 2. Energy;
3. Perception of reality.
(Laura)
In other words they send through...
(Jan) Holographic images.
(Terry) They transmit energy that takes matter here and creates what
we perceive, and what we perceive depends on what they expect to see,
which the Lizzies have to tap into first before they do the triage...
that is the "reality bonding channel." If you are open to see Men
in Black, even if you don't know what they are, then at some level
of consciousness... ...
(Laura) It is like doing a back-flip through the realm curtain.
(Frank) But I think this is not just limited to Men In Black.
(L) Listen to this! [reads from transcript]
Q:
Several times I have heard references to big rectangular boxes,
I would like to know who these belong to?"
A: Lizard projections...
(Laura)
What are they doing, projecting their whole damn reality into our
world?
(Frank) Well, apparently part of the whole process of going from 4th
density to 3rd density is the "projection" process itself. This also,
of course, explains much of what we have read and heard about in terms
of higher phenomena. You cannot ground it at all. So many people have
fallen off the track by expecting to capture metallic craft and dissect
them, and, while that does happen... That is where material science
falls apart. It is stuck in a vicious cycle.
(Jan) Yes, and it is using it's own rules to make itself obsolete!
(Frank) Right!
(Terry) So, the bottom line is, we have simply gone beyond the KRLL
stuff, the Cooper and Lear stuff, and so on.
(Frank) Which is one of the reasons why the Cassiopaeans keep telling
us to stop asking these stupid questions.
(Terry) There's another thing that is even more interesting and
that is that we are not alone in this density, there are other beings
on other planets also. And, it just may be that some of them are coming
here just to throw some more stuff in the soup to keep us confused
as to which or who is what.
(Frank) I have a feeling, though, that probably, everything that we
have experienced in the UFO area over the many years is a passage
from higher levels of density to this one. I don't think that we have
ever experienced a 3rd to 3rd transfer. That is just my feeling. And,
it is only just now that people are beginning to realize that. In
other words...
(Terry) Well, that is what Vallee thinks, along those lines, so he
is just looking at interdimensional, because...
(Frank) But Vallee is also a material scientist so he is examining
it in a scientific way. He is a little more open-minded than some
who would just say it is impossible because we haven't discovered
it yet... But, he is doing it in a very careful way.
(Laura) Well, have we done enough with KRLL?
(Terry) Yeah, I think we have done more than enough with KRLL.
At that
point, we turned to other subjects.
As I have
detailed elsewhere, I first became aware of the Matrix books, assembled
and published by Val Valerian, in February of 1995 when I was invited
to visit the elderly gentleman who told me about the Coral Castle. Hilliard
showed me his library, which contained the Matrix books, and I only
saw them on the shelf, and did not actually have time to open the covers,
but he assured me that they were full of interesting information. At
that time, I had no idea of how they would "connect" to the
KRLL papers.
A week
after the above session in which the KRLL papers were discussed, I had
received them from Sally and had read them by the time of the next session.
I decided to ask a couple of follow up questions. This session was in
January of 1995, a year before the time we are discussing in our chronology.
Q: (L)
Okay, give me a quick yes or no answer on this: Dr. Paul Bennewitz
- reliable [source?]
A: No.
Q: (L) Is his statement, as it is recorded in the KRLL papers, falsified?
A: No.
Q: (L) Is any of that statement true?
A: Partly.
Q: (L) Who is O. H. KRLL?
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